A breath or two
Ok Jessie, those are gorgeous flowers that Jim sent you, and its small gestures like that and hearing about my coworker Anne Marie and the things she does with her boyfriend that convenience me how wrong Eric and I were for each other. More on that later though.
So my big weekend… I had been preparing for it for months, and it came and went quite quickly!
Saturday, I wasn’t planning on going in to work, but had a couple of panic moments, and went it for an hour to check e-mail and voice mail, nothing big at all. Nice that I went in, but I would have been fine had I not. After work I picked up Ethan and we went to the wedding together. It was a really nice wedding, simple and elegant. Though I only knew the bride (of course) and bridesmaid, so it was a bit lull at the reception. We ended up sitting with two of the girls who went to the bachelorette party, and they were ruder than rude. They are old hs friends, and only kept to themselves, didn’t even try to include us… so we saw Katie, ate a little bit, we both had work to do, so we left shortly after. Later in the evening we met at a bar, which two other people were suppose to come… but didn’t. But I liked it that way…
So here is where it does get complicated… the timing was never right with us, but fate always brought us back together, and when it did, it was like no time had passed. I feel as though I can talk to him about anything, and we do. From sex, to life, to practically anything. He is very intelligent, and we talk about current things (something Eric and I never did), and there are many things he knows about that I don’t, and I want to learn, he does in a way make me want to be a better person. So Saturday we went out as always had a great conversation, then went back to his place, and had sex again… it is quite good with him too… almost better than many times with Eric… different but a very good different.
Sunday we woke up, and had breakfast, and talked, and just had a good time together. I drove him to work, and myself to work because my event was that night.
It just stinks because I am so very attracted to him, but his whatever is coming tomorrow, and Saturday he leaves for DC… so no really future there, which is hard. I’ve always been attracted to him, but the timing was just never there. And now that the timing on my end is working, it isn’t on his… he’s leaving and there isn’t anything I can do about it. I’m alright with that… I knew it was coming, and I always knew my feelings, so it is what it is. Tonight we are having a going away party for him, and that will be that. I’m going to visit DC (I have other friends that live there as well) in the winter, but it will be strange to not see him, it’s become a very regular thing lately, and I’ll miss him quite a bit.
So down to the other two very important things in my life… the events!
I was of course beside myself nervous as all heck, but they went really well. Sunday evening the event went off without a hitch, everyone was quite pleased, the keynote speaker was fantastic, food was great, and everyone had a good time. I received many compliments from many people, and it felt really good to see at that point is where my career really began to take off. I had a big task handed to me, and I preformed great! I am very proud of myself and so excited for my career. I really proved myself Sunday night that I am able and capable of big projects. Ever since the museum, I had very little self confidence in the workplace, but after these events I know that I am a worthwhile employee and capable of many things.
Monday went great as well! A long 12 hour day, but I loved every moment of it. Golf was great, people were very pleased, and I can’t think of many things if any that went wrong.
So yes… I am a little on cloud nine right now with how well I did, and I feel a bit egotistical saying that…. But I do deserve to not be so hard on myself, and congratulate myself on a job well done. I am very happy with the events, and surprised myself with how well they went, and what a good job I did. I can’t wait for the next ones!
So I best get back to work though… a lot of cleanup to do from the golf tournament, and then I have to find a super cute dress for tonight, we’re going to a jazz club tonight for part of the night, and then who knows where else, but I have to look good!
I'm looking so very forward to my future!
So my big weekend… I had been preparing for it for months, and it came and went quite quickly!
Saturday, I wasn’t planning on going in to work, but had a couple of panic moments, and went it for an hour to check e-mail and voice mail, nothing big at all. Nice that I went in, but I would have been fine had I not. After work I picked up Ethan and we went to the wedding together. It was a really nice wedding, simple and elegant. Though I only knew the bride (of course) and bridesmaid, so it was a bit lull at the reception. We ended up sitting with two of the girls who went to the bachelorette party, and they were ruder than rude. They are old hs friends, and only kept to themselves, didn’t even try to include us… so we saw Katie, ate a little bit, we both had work to do, so we left shortly after. Later in the evening we met at a bar, which two other people were suppose to come… but didn’t. But I liked it that way…
So here is where it does get complicated… the timing was never right with us, but fate always brought us back together, and when it did, it was like no time had passed. I feel as though I can talk to him about anything, and we do. From sex, to life, to practically anything. He is very intelligent, and we talk about current things (something Eric and I never did), and there are many things he knows about that I don’t, and I want to learn, he does in a way make me want to be a better person. So Saturday we went out as always had a great conversation, then went back to his place, and had sex again… it is quite good with him too… almost better than many times with Eric… different but a very good different.
Sunday we woke up, and had breakfast, and talked, and just had a good time together. I drove him to work, and myself to work because my event was that night.
It just stinks because I am so very attracted to him, but his whatever is coming tomorrow, and Saturday he leaves for DC… so no really future there, which is hard. I’ve always been attracted to him, but the timing was just never there. And now that the timing on my end is working, it isn’t on his… he’s leaving and there isn’t anything I can do about it. I’m alright with that… I knew it was coming, and I always knew my feelings, so it is what it is. Tonight we are having a going away party for him, and that will be that. I’m going to visit DC (I have other friends that live there as well) in the winter, but it will be strange to not see him, it’s become a very regular thing lately, and I’ll miss him quite a bit.
So down to the other two very important things in my life… the events!
I was of course beside myself nervous as all heck, but they went really well. Sunday evening the event went off without a hitch, everyone was quite pleased, the keynote speaker was fantastic, food was great, and everyone had a good time. I received many compliments from many people, and it felt really good to see at that point is where my career really began to take off. I had a big task handed to me, and I preformed great! I am very proud of myself and so excited for my career. I really proved myself Sunday night that I am able and capable of big projects. Ever since the museum, I had very little self confidence in the workplace, but after these events I know that I am a worthwhile employee and capable of many things.
Monday went great as well! A long 12 hour day, but I loved every moment of it. Golf was great, people were very pleased, and I can’t think of many things if any that went wrong.
So yes… I am a little on cloud nine right now with how well I did, and I feel a bit egotistical saying that…. But I do deserve to not be so hard on myself, and congratulate myself on a job well done. I am very happy with the events, and surprised myself with how well they went, and what a good job I did. I can’t wait for the next ones!
So I best get back to work though… a lot of cleanup to do from the golf tournament, and then I have to find a super cute dress for tonight, we’re going to a jazz club tonight for part of the night, and then who knows where else, but I have to look good!
I'm looking so very forward to my future!