As I had stated to you prior in the mall, the time in which I had said such things was in fact the time that I was overly stressed out at home and everyone’s little quirks had been irritating me. It wasn’t that I disliked the person, in fact that couldn’t be further from the truth. I was just easily aggravated and went the wrong way about it and began talking shit. (& I definitely wasn’t the only one talking shit.) But I do admit that talking about any person that irritated me was wrong to do and I should’ve just kept it to myself until my “funk” blew over. I didn’t, though, and I can’t change that.
I do apologize, though, for saying anything offensive. Really, it’s nothing against you, I was just lashing out against everyone that week.
You know me, I normally don’t talk shit. I’m usually the one who sits back and listens to everyone else talking. But for some reason that entire week or two that I was in a tiff, I couldn’t help myself. EVERYTHING was getting to me, so EVERYTHING got to feel the wrath of Manda.
Again, I’m very sorry, and I would understand if you were still entirely pissed at me, you have the right to be upset. I guess the reason I didn’t say it to your face was because that was the first time I ever felt that way about you … I didn’t know how to go about it. Suffice to say, I don’t still feel that way, which is why I wouldn’t have mentioned it now.
and quite honestly "but as of now i dont care, i dont want to be youre friend anymore, i feel , well i dont feel for you." that pretty much explains everything.
and for future reference i will have absolutlely no problem with anyone, if and only if they tell me whats going on, ie. if whatever it may be relates to me, or if anyone tries to hide an action from me specifically.
when you get back, i prolly wont try to hang out with you, i prolly wont call you, but i will be nice and hangout with you if we happen across each other, harsh, possibly, though i dont know if hanging out with you would make our prior friendship a reality again.
Not just about you, but everyone was talking about everyone and you were mentioned a few times, but this is something I'd rather confide in person, if you don't mind.
i dont mind , i just think it's fucked up of you to join in. b/c i did find out that you were talking shit about me. so i vented to a friend of mine, about what went down, how i found out that you think im immature and before that before any of the "bad vibes" id never say a negative word about you. thats just not cool at all in my opinion. if we do hang out once you get back, if you have a problem with me please say it. dont go behind my back and say crap. at least be that nice about it. no matter if it is just an annoance.
btw, julia popped on the 14th at 11:31 pm her babe weighed 7lbs 3 oz. and got a 9.9 outta 10 on the color test that they perform on newborns
when i talked to you today i forgot to say one last thing, honestly i did.
our friendship was lost yes this is true. the reasons were simple because your actions and your words and your attitude never agreed. i didnt like that. which is whatever im not telling to change. the shit talking happened if you wanna know who clued me in, its probably the one youre protecting. i felt like i was the only one applying effort to sustain our friendship. you mooched too much. but in your denfense i offerred the rides and i didnt say anything about minding buying the ciggarrettes or footing the bill on the gas. im telling you these things now, because its easier to collect my thoughts on the computer and it takes away all possiblity for anger.
also to let you know that in the time span that you left i pretty much frigured out everyone who said anything about me and fixed my problems between us. feel free to not reply or not even finish reading this bc know its to get it out. alli, scott, you, greg, and any of the other regulars at the time. i just dont understand why you couldnt be up front with your problems with me. and i believe that you believe that you lose your chick friends do to jealous-c i cant spell that word. but that doesnt apply to this case. it was your honesty. well im done, if that was coherent enough for you i dont mind trying to explain anything that i wrote down. strange huh?
I know this friendship wasn't lost to jealousy. And I only lost one female friendship to jealousy anyway. I kind of drifted because I knew I was asking for too many rides, so I tried asking other people, and, well, none of them were as kind as you as far as that was concerned, so I basically fell from the group. And every time I did go back to the group, it seemed like nobody was happy with anyone else. To be quite frank, I'm kind of glad I'm not hanging out with them regularly. I can handle that only in small doses, like once a week, which is about the average since I've gotten back.
But anyway, even though our friendship is through, I'm getting a job soon, and I'll throw some money your way to pay you back for all the rides and such.
& It makes sense that you can explain yourself more in writing, I'm the exact same way. You can take your time to think of how you want to word things. I prefer writing, actually.
I do apologize, though, for saying anything offensive. Really, it’s nothing against you, I was just lashing out against everyone that week.
You know me, I normally don’t talk shit. I’m usually the one who sits back and listens to everyone else talking. But for some reason that entire week or two that I was in a tiff, I couldn’t help myself. EVERYTHING was getting to me, so EVERYTHING got to feel the wrath of Manda.
Again, I’m very sorry, and I would understand if you were still entirely pissed at me, you have the right to be upset. I guess the reason I didn’t say it to your face was because that was the first time I ever felt that way about you … I didn’t know how to go about it. Suffice to say, I don’t still feel that way, which is why I wouldn’t have mentioned it now.
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and quite honestly "but as of now i dont care, i dont want to be youre friend anymore, i feel , well i dont feel for you." that pretty much explains everything.
and for future reference i will have absolutlely no problem with anyone, if and only if they tell me whats going on, ie. if whatever it may be relates to me, or if anyone tries to hide an action from me specifically.
when you get back, i prolly wont try to hang out with you, i prolly wont call you, but i will be nice and hangout with you if we happen across each other, harsh, possibly, though i dont know if hanging out with you would make our prior friendship a reality again.
sorry.
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You've no reason to be sorry.
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btw, julia popped on the 14th at 11:31 pm her babe weighed 7lbs 3 oz. and got a 9.9 outta 10 on the color test that they perform on newborns
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I saw the baby, she's adorable.
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our friendship was lost yes this is true. the reasons were simple because your actions and your words and your attitude never agreed. i didnt like that. which is whatever im not telling to change. the shit talking happened if you wanna know who clued me in, its probably the one youre protecting. i felt like i was the only one applying effort to sustain our friendship. you mooched too much. but in your denfense i offerred the rides and i didnt say anything about minding buying the ciggarrettes or footing the bill on the gas. im telling you these things now, because its easier to collect my thoughts on the computer and it takes away all possiblity for anger.
also to let you know that in the time span that you left i pretty much frigured out everyone who said anything about me and fixed my problems between us. feel free to not reply or not even finish reading this bc know its to get it out. alli, scott, you, greg, and any of the other regulars at the time. i just dont understand why you couldnt be up front with your problems with me. and i believe that you believe that you lose your chick friends do to jealous-c i cant spell that word. but that doesnt apply to this case. it was your honesty. well im done, if that was coherent enough for you i dont mind trying to explain anything that i wrote down. strange huh?
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But anyway, even though our friendship is through, I'm getting a job soon, and I'll throw some money your way to pay you back for all the rides and such.
& It makes sense that you can explain yourself more in writing, I'm the exact same way. You can take your time to think of how you want to word things. I prefer writing, actually.
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