more decisions..
Ellie sat there beside the bed for sometime just thinking and rethinking about everything that had happened with Jack. She couldn’t help but feel guilty about what happened. It was like it was the final act to their relationship and they went out without a fight. Something was missing from her… she felt guilty but yet not guilty. She didn’t feel the same about him anymore. The kiss only proved that even more. It felt… awkward even though she tried to find that spark she used to feel. She wondered how Jack was taking it. Was he okay? She felt the need to check on him, but she dismissed it. If he was fine, he would be upset because she thought he was a “baby” or if he was hurting, he would be embarrassed that she saw it. Later, she would go and find him.. talk to him.. after she talked to Luke.
“Luke… Oh.. how am I going to tell you…” Shaking her head, she realized that she hadn’t done anything wrong kissing Jack back. She wasn’t with either of them technically, but she still felt like she betrayed Luke by kissing back. The kiss itself basically confirmed that she didn’t feel the same way about Jack as she used to. It was like their love had stayed the same, but they had grown up.. it was that perennial flower that was always the same every year.. it never grew any bigger, any greener. That was sad to think about. It was different with Luke. Every time they were apart the love they had for each other grew and transformed like they did. Or at least, she thought it did. Did Luke feel the same? Or would he be like Jack and try to convince her that she loved Jack. What if she ended up alone?
She shook these thoughts from her mind. Trust, she had to trust that Luke loved her as much as she loved him. She had to trust that what happened with Jack could never happen with Luke. They were different than her and Jack. Sighing, she pulled herself off the floor. She couldn’t just sit here all day and wait for Luke to show up. Instead, she left her room at made her way back to the main café, and to the kitchen where Alice was.
“Luke… Oh.. how am I going to tell you…” Shaking her head, she realized that she hadn’t done anything wrong kissing Jack back. She wasn’t with either of them technically, but she still felt like she betrayed Luke by kissing back. The kiss itself basically confirmed that she didn’t feel the same way about Jack as she used to. It was like their love had stayed the same, but they had grown up.. it was that perennial flower that was always the same every year.. it never grew any bigger, any greener. That was sad to think about. It was different with Luke. Every time they were apart the love they had for each other grew and transformed like they did. Or at least, she thought it did. Did Luke feel the same? Or would he be like Jack and try to convince her that she loved Jack. What if she ended up alone?
She shook these thoughts from her mind. Trust, she had to trust that Luke loved her as much as she loved him. She had to trust that what happened with Jack could never happen with Luke. They were different than her and Jack. Sighing, she pulled herself off the floor. She couldn’t just sit here all day and wait for Luke to show up. Instead, she left her room at made her way back to the main café, and to the kitchen where Alice was.