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[malkuthmalakh]

I was.

And then I was not.

And now I am again.

I remember sudden pain.

And then I was not.

And now I am again.

[[ooc: Decapitated during curse. Hiding in the garden trying to cope with curse-mortality.]]

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[againstgod]

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[malkuthmalakh]

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[againstgod]

[She knew he had died, when the human pulse of his aura had vanished and she knew when it was rekindled. Alexiel expected his reaction: The Angel of Death tastes his own realm. She waited and came to him when she saw it. He couldn't hide from her. Very few can. Even in the unsightly garden he chose as hideout, she ventured within]

Uriel.

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[malkuthmalakh]

[[It was possible to die, he knew that. He had seen it so many times. The ending of that brief spark. And he knew what would happen to an angel whose wings were cut off, or who was damaged beyond repair: the slow disintegration of mind and form. He knew that death was inexorable. He knew that to die was to be reborn. That in autumn the leaves feel so that in spring new trees would rise from them. In principle, this was all good. But since the Sephiroth had first formed out of the great holy presence, since his feet had first touched the barren rock of the infant earth, since he had first known who he was, he had never ended. And although it was a falsehood, a sham death made by a city with power greater than his, never until now had he ever understood. And so he stared at the earth and tried to remember that time when for a few hours he had not been. It was like a limb had been cut off, and he was acutely aware of its absence, unto the very core of his being

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[againstgod]

The first death is always the hardest.

[She looked at him without pity or mirth, just knowing what he must felt in this moment. She had felt it in the last, painful breath of her first human life. It was all in a single cry her soul had been allowed to utter before passing away into another and restarting the cycle.]

To think you once pleaded to me - to Setsuna - to take up your scythe and behead you.

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[malkuthmalakh]

[He laughed, and there was a hint of bitterness in it.]

Oh, foolish me of the past. What atonement is there in the sacrifice of a life when one does not understand the meaning of death? When one has not suffered it again and again. It is balance that thou, Alex, on whom I laid the curse of mortality, come to me now when I have suffered it but briefly myself. That is a degree of atonement.

[He shook his head]

If I had known what it meant, I should never...

That is a lie, and to thee I cannot lie. I would still have laid it upon thee.

[He buried his head in his knees. A dark spill of hair tumbled down across his legs, like a waterfall of grief. Now his voice was slightly muffled.]

I was learning to forget this, and find peace in my own heart. Too soon, it seems.

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[againstgod]

You are wrong as usual.

[She doesn't touch him while he speaks, head buried in his knees and uttering many woes. At his words of self-pity, she has to sigh]

Setsuna's sentence mirrors mine that was life and not death. He told you I understood and I did. What happened was bad luck and the City's doing, also born of your foolishness to go alone knowing your state. Death isn't an atonement I want for you.

[She looks at her hands. How many angels have perished under her merciless judgment.]

If that was it... I would have killed you.

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[malkuthmalakh]

[[Uriel lifted his head and nodded solemnly.]]

Ever thou wert the voice of reason, Alex, and speak to me with words of solemn wisdom. I will master this experience. By it will I understand all things better.

[[He unfolded upwards from the rock he was sitting on and shook his head, and if shaking away old cobwebs that had briefly taken hold of him. Then he faced her.]]

But do not call my going alone foolishness. Call not my desire to protect the weak so, for I do as I will, as justice demands and as is in my heart. To do what we know to be right whatever the cost, whatever law of man or god is flaunted, this we do. And were I angel or crippled blind mortal, still shall I do what must be done.

[[He shakes his head and turns away.. too many thoughts.. It was more peaceful in Hades. But also lonely, even with the little Doll for company.]]

Ah, forgive me. In time, my mind will be at rest. In time all ills fade, all griefs pass. Even ours. Nothing lasts forever...

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[againstgod]

After all this time you haven't learned? You can't protect anybody if you die. If you want to protect, grow stronger in a way you can do that.

[She looked at him, pursing her lips in a smile]

But at least your foolishness wasn't selfish. Yours won't, Uriel. Don't forget your sentence, I will not allow you escape from my judgment so easily.

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[malkuthmalakh]

[There was a twinkle in his eyes, the closest he came to a smile.]

Until now, I have never died, and so how could I learn such a thing, Alex, in all the time until now? It is a wisdom thou hast learned by living. What need had I to protect before I came here? What need to care for any but myself and my own pain? What need while I lived under the earth?

[He fingered his throat thoughtfully. The sword cut was gone, but the memory of it remained.]

It is well. I have learned it now. And patiently shall I await thy judgement, briefly suspended by thy grace, Great Lady. The biter bit, and the judge, judged.

[He stared at her, and inclined his head, politely, but with the very slightest hint of very friendly insolence.]

[[ ._.;; ]]

[againstgod]

Death doesn't teach you anything, Uriel. If it does, the most valuable lesson comes from living.

[She moves to face him.]

Would you stay there all day or would you come with me to the place I call home?

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[malkuthmalakh]

From living, yes.

[He looked introspective for a moment and shook his head.]

Thy offer is kind, Alex, o oldest of friends, but...I am happier here among the green things. I will visit thee one fine day. When it can be certain the Morningstar is not nearby.

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[againstgod]

Then come with me into the wildness of the woods. I would rather avoid gardens as you want to avoid Lucifer.