when you feel so tired but you can't sleep - stuck in reverse
I need to get out. Do something. Go somewhere.
I am so sad that I'm not starting school with everyone in the next week or so. I really do love school. Not only because I love to learn but I think I also love it because then I'm not thrown into this 'real world' with a boring job where I sit at a desk all day.
Which I'm currently at. I know it's only temporary. And I'm truly grateful for the job I have. It's convenient, good experience, and nice people. But I'm too young to be stuck in an office doing mundane tasks.
Everyone says "oh your young, you'll figure out what you want to do" or "the world is your oyster. you can do whatever you want right now". Okay.. yes. But what? And how? Haha. I feel like expenses hold me back a lot. And I shouldn't let it.
But it's scary to just take a leap into something not knowing whether or not I will like it. Sure, I can up & move to Kansas. But what if I totally hate it when I get there? Then I guess I'm back at square 1.
I can't help but keep going back to thinking about teaching. Since I love school so much, it makes sense right? But I don't think I know what it takes to BE a teacher.
A friend at work today suggested going back to school & take some classes towards another Bachelors degree, which is a thought. I should look into it for next semester.
Ahh! This is all CONSTANT thoughts running through my little head. I'm just anxious to move on with my life to do bigger & better things, I guess.
Seriously God, I'm really trying to be patient.. a little help please? Lol. :)
I am so sad that I'm not starting school with everyone in the next week or so. I really do love school. Not only because I love to learn but I think I also love it because then I'm not thrown into this 'real world' with a boring job where I sit at a desk all day.
Which I'm currently at. I know it's only temporary. And I'm truly grateful for the job I have. It's convenient, good experience, and nice people. But I'm too young to be stuck in an office doing mundane tasks.
Everyone says "oh your young, you'll figure out what you want to do" or "the world is your oyster. you can do whatever you want right now". Okay.. yes. But what? And how? Haha. I feel like expenses hold me back a lot. And I shouldn't let it.
But it's scary to just take a leap into something not knowing whether or not I will like it. Sure, I can up & move to Kansas. But what if I totally hate it when I get there? Then I guess I'm back at square 1.
I can't help but keep going back to thinking about teaching. Since I love school so much, it makes sense right? But I don't think I know what it takes to BE a teacher.
A friend at work today suggested going back to school & take some classes towards another Bachelors degree, which is a thought. I should look into it for next semester.
Ahh! This is all CONSTANT thoughts running through my little head. I'm just anxious to move on with my life to do bigger & better things, I guess.
Seriously God, I'm really trying to be patient.. a little help please? Lol. :)