Another update while at school. I'm a good student.
It's so crazy to think about where my life was at one year ago. First of all, it's nuts that I've been living back at home for almost a year now. I still feel like I'm going to be leaving again soon... and I still have things I want to do to my room to make it feel like my own. In some ways I wish I could go back, but then again not at all. Maybe if I could take who I am now & go back & change some decisions then that would be okay.. but I dunno. Haha. I just think it's so weird how relationships/people can change in the span of a year.
I was just reading my past couple years entries around this time of year... Valentines Day. And I say the same thing every year, so I guess I don't need to express where I stand on the fake holiday. Haha. Well I didn't have an entry last year.. maybe because I didn't know what to say given the circumstances. Haha.
I've decided that I don't trust the whole relationship thing. It's a very sucky thing to feel this way, but I just don't like the build-up then getting let down. Part of my reason for being so hesitant in the past... I knew better (well in some cases), but went along with it anyway. Ha.. Now, I feel like it's deja vu. Things reminding me of the past..Ahh whatever. It's no fun being alone, but I need to concentrate on my own things right now anyway. Things will happen how they are supposed to happen & I have complete faith in that.
This is from one of my fav Yellowcard songs:
If ever you loved me, you'd say.. it's okay
it's okay to be angry & never let go
it only gets harder the more that you know
when you get lonely, if no one's around
you know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
we came together but you left alone
and I know how it feels to walk out on your own
maybe someday I will see you again
and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend.
This entry sounds all sad & depressing... but truly I'm quite happy... and I haven't been stressing out about anything but school... I guess I just wanted to say that stuff. Hahahaha. :)
I was just reading my past couple years entries around this time of year... Valentines Day. And I say the same thing every year, so I guess I don't need to express where I stand on the fake holiday. Haha. Well I didn't have an entry last year.. maybe because I didn't know what to say given the circumstances. Haha.
I've decided that I don't trust the whole relationship thing. It's a very sucky thing to feel this way, but I just don't like the build-up then getting let down. Part of my reason for being so hesitant in the past... I knew better (well in some cases), but went along with it anyway. Ha.. Now, I feel like it's deja vu. Things reminding me of the past..Ahh whatever. It's no fun being alone, but I need to concentrate on my own things right now anyway. Things will happen how they are supposed to happen & I have complete faith in that.
This is from one of my fav Yellowcard songs:
If ever you loved me, you'd say.. it's okay
it's okay to be angry & never let go
it only gets harder the more that you know
when you get lonely, if no one's around
you know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
we came together but you left alone
and I know how it feels to walk out on your own
maybe someday I will see you again
and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend.
This entry sounds all sad & depressing... but truly I'm quite happy... and I haven't been stressing out about anything but school... I guess I just wanted to say that stuff. Hahahaha. :)