To state the obvious.. I didn't get my perfect fantasy...
Oh man... I really messed up my sleeping schedule this weekend.
It's now 1:21 a.m. and I'm not tired. Waking up in the morning will be rough.
There is a Jon & Kate Plus 8 marathon on TLC.. I love this show. The kids are soo cute.
I really don't know how they can handle all those kids so well though.
I would go crazy. But I'm scared of large groups of kids. Haha.
Last night, Mandy & I went to the casino in Windsor.
It was fun. I love Pick 'Em Poker. Ha.
I really wanted to play blackjack but I didn't really have enough $$ to do that.
And I was nervous.
Only time I ever played before, I had the boys with me to tell me what to do - in case I wasn't sure.
I can't wait till my birthday. I am so anxious for it to come.
Sometimes I just wish I could be selfish (and not feel guilt for that).
I wish it mattered what I was feeling, or my thoughts.
But then again, sharing tends to make me feel stupid (or look like an idiot), so I think I'm done with that.
I should just go back to when I was content being all by myself.
If only it was that easy. Ha.
It would be nice to just move away & "get away from my problems"..
But that doesn't happen. And moving away is not happening for me.
Although the past week I keep thinking of how I wish I was away at school again.
And then the whole "major" issue has come back into my mind.
Am I really going in the right direction? Can I really get a job with a psych degree?
Ahh. It's never-ending....
I am so broke right now. I really haven't felt this broke in a super long time.
And I get paid Friday but it will be barely anything.
Good thing next semester I can work more days.
I feel as if I barely ate today.
I think I'm going to go eat pizza.
It's now 1:21 a.m. and I'm not tired. Waking up in the morning will be rough.
There is a Jon & Kate Plus 8 marathon on TLC.. I love this show. The kids are soo cute.
I really don't know how they can handle all those kids so well though.
I would go crazy. But I'm scared of large groups of kids. Haha.
Last night, Mandy & I went to the casino in Windsor.
It was fun. I love Pick 'Em Poker. Ha.
I really wanted to play blackjack but I didn't really have enough $$ to do that.
And I was nervous.
Only time I ever played before, I had the boys with me to tell me what to do - in case I wasn't sure.
I can't wait till my birthday. I am so anxious for it to come.
Sometimes I just wish I could be selfish (and not feel guilt for that).
I wish it mattered what I was feeling, or my thoughts.
But then again, sharing tends to make me feel stupid (or look like an idiot), so I think I'm done with that.
I should just go back to when I was content being all by myself.
If only it was that easy. Ha.
It would be nice to just move away & "get away from my problems"..
But that doesn't happen. And moving away is not happening for me.
Although the past week I keep thinking of how I wish I was away at school again.
And then the whole "major" issue has come back into my mind.
Am I really going in the right direction? Can I really get a job with a psych degree?
Ahh. It's never-ending....
I am so broke right now. I really haven't felt this broke in a super long time.
And I get paid Friday but it will be barely anything.
Good thing next semester I can work more days.
I feel as if I barely ate today.
I think I'm going to go eat pizza.