echo, echo, echo...
i'm surprised i can log into this thing. it's been almost literrally 11 months since i've logged into livejournal. ahh, the illusion of privacy.
been a fucked up week. first a message out of nowhere from bob, attempting to justify 3 years of silence with one of the best ego boosts i've had in i dont know how long, followed by the affirmation that the silence would continue, within the same paragraph.
talk about a head trip.
one sentenace in the entire message sticks out more than the rest of it. "i hope you learned something from our time together".
little did i know how much irony would be contained in that sentiment, as i kid you not, in the same week, someone i'd just met a month before, and had spent nearly every day since connecting with more and more, (actually inseperable for the last few days) delivers a message via text so similar that it left my head spinning. less ego boost this time, and more of an "implied" silence, but the meaning was more or less clear. and we havent really talked since.
as the saying goes, those who do not learn from the past are doomed to repeat it. if that's true, then i apparently didnt learn how to avoid the situation the second time around, and being reminded of it out of the blue was an even bigger slap in the face.
the tried and true method of learning something tho, is to analyze it over and over again from different angles, until something makes more sense than it did before.
i still dont want to believe what i feel like these experiences are trying to teach me. that performing the same actions over and over again, expecting a different result, is insanity, and that i am still incurably insane.
or am i.
been a fucked up week. first a message out of nowhere from bob, attempting to justify 3 years of silence with one of the best ego boosts i've had in i dont know how long, followed by the affirmation that the silence would continue, within the same paragraph.
talk about a head trip.
one sentenace in the entire message sticks out more than the rest of it. "i hope you learned something from our time together".
little did i know how much irony would be contained in that sentiment, as i kid you not, in the same week, someone i'd just met a month before, and had spent nearly every day since connecting with more and more, (actually inseperable for the last few days) delivers a message via text so similar that it left my head spinning. less ego boost this time, and more of an "implied" silence, but the meaning was more or less clear. and we havent really talked since.
as the saying goes, those who do not learn from the past are doomed to repeat it. if that's true, then i apparently didnt learn how to avoid the situation the second time around, and being reminded of it out of the blue was an even bigger slap in the face.
the tried and true method of learning something tho, is to analyze it over and over again from different angles, until something makes more sense than it did before.
i still dont want to believe what i feel like these experiences are trying to teach me. that performing the same actions over and over again, expecting a different result, is insanity, and that i am still incurably insane.
or am i.