so what

[maliciousmaia]

you ever get those realizations that are this flaming beauty of a epiphony that you absolutely love once you stumble onto them? were you ever unable to fully grasp that realization you got til months later? yeh? well....im experiencing a moment the same as that. im taking my time with it all. i cant even count how many times i lectured my friends bout being optimistic and not worring about whats going to happen. but i did it all the time. i found out my moon is in capricorn. makes sense. but a virgo with a capricorn moon? ugh...doesnt that just rub you all sortsa wrong? anyway...im just trying to use that as a reason im so oft. (i dun think there is one single reason) im following my own advise now. i got the tarot cards and strayed all sortsa far off of my own morals but im back on track. i suppose it was wanting to learn them so bad. (always looking deeper than nescecary huh maia?)

questions upon questions and then answers with their own answers. if you unravel a ball of string you'll find its end eventually righ?i believe that curiosity for the answer of answers is why im belly up playing with the same ball over and over again. and you know what? im quitting. because so often i get to that end and it looks like the same end i started with.

satiety. is my card for this moment in life. over flowing. over abundance. i understand what its telling me. but can i obey it. we'll see in the times to come. the times to take whats learned make it useful. make good decisions.