moving on..only this time i [hopefully] mean it..

[malicious_syn]

i need to move on. i know, and so does everyone else. im sick of always putting my heart out on the line for andy, and him just leaving it there to die..he knew. he always knew how i felt about him. for almost a year, he fucking knew. and now im done. honestly this time. it's gonna hurt, but i know this. it's gonna be so hard to let him finally go, but i need to. it's prolly better to feel the pain of letting go then to feel the pain of knowing that he just dgaf. that's just how it always seemed. that he just didn't give a fuck. 'i love you, but i cant hurt you'. fuck you andy. fuck you. fuck you for making me hurt, fuck you for making me cry, fuck you for making me love again. i've spent way too many nights crying over you. always wondering whut i did wrong. why you never gave us a chance. well andy, i WAS your chance. and now it's gone. they say 'no boy is ever worth your tears' but you were. i fucking loved you. so much. i was perfectly fine with waiting until you were ready to give it a try. but that will never happen. and i wanna kick my own ass for believing that you would want to one day. im naive, and i realize that now. so this is it. fuck it. fuck you. fuck love. im done.

'cutting off the phone.
leave me the fuck alone.
tomarrow i'll be begging you to come home.'

on a dif. note, i have a date for prom now. cory said he'd go with me. i've missed him. i hope this is a good idea..

PeacE.♠