understanding?
sometimes i just can't stop myself from doing the things i know will hurt me. i know i shouldn't read what she says. i KNOW. but sometimes i want to know. why do i do that? the only thing that does for me is makes me feel horrible because i can't even talk to him about any of it because i already know waht he will say about it. so i guess i will never know the truth. unless she is telling the truth which is bad. because the things that she says, happen, make me sad. when he says all she does is lie and those things never happen. [between you and me, i don't think she would lie]
i've never had to deal with a reltionship that is like this. it is horrible. i'm happy. but everything he has on his plate, i normally would have said no way. but how could i ever turn down a face like his?
heartbreak. is something i am determined to never feel again. you may think it is impossible but it isn't. i just have to convince myself that it wasn't really meant to be. that though i may have loved him that maybe it wasn't right for us to end up together. and when i think of things like that, i am not sad.
he says he wants to know me forever. even if we aren't together that he wants me to always be apart of his life. [i don't bleieve it] he says i'm the only one that listens to him about everything.
