fuck you. and your untouchable face.
life is taking some sharp turns on me. everything is so unexpected and new. i don't think i've ever thought of you in this light. and to be honest with you, i'm scared. i never wanted it to be like this. i always wanted happiness, for both of us. maybe this is right. maybe this is what we needed. a new life. a new start. a new reason to smile.
maybe i've got this all wrong. maybe just maybe, i'm secretly going insane, from all of this. from all of the new found issues in my life.
i don't think you have any idea how crazy this all makes me feel. i try and keep my cool, but i fear that you might just be able to see how torn up i am. how sad this really makes me, i don't want you to know how hurt i really am. because if you knew then that would make me vonerable.... or maybe just more than i already am.
who am i trying to fool? why am i hiding everything from everyone about how i feel about everything?
it is so hard for me to not want to be with you. i'm trying to stop myself from wanting that, because i know it wont be good. not right now. things just aren't good right now.
maybe i should consider talking to someone about all of this.
i can't believe you did this to me again....... again. How is it you can fool me so easily. You are a smooth talker, and i should have seen it from the start. i should have listened to everyone when they told me you were bad news. i should have not be so foolish. you don't fucking deserve me. Go ahead. lie to yourself some more. i'm sure you are really happy. because everyone knows that life is only about sex. Sorry i wouldn't sleep with you.... my mistake. if you thought i was bitter before, wait till you see me now. you don't deserve to be happy. and i hope you regret what you have done.
heart. heart. heart.
♥ ♥ ♥
maybe i've got this all wrong. maybe just maybe, i'm secretly going insane, from all of this. from all of the new found issues in my life.
i don't think you have any idea how crazy this all makes me feel. i try and keep my cool, but i fear that you might just be able to see how torn up i am. how sad this really makes me, i don't want you to know how hurt i really am. because if you knew then that would make me vonerable.... or maybe just more than i already am.
who am i trying to fool? why am i hiding everything from everyone about how i feel about everything?
it is so hard for me to not want to be with you. i'm trying to stop myself from wanting that, because i know it wont be good. not right now. things just aren't good right now.
maybe i should consider talking to someone about all of this.
i can't believe you did this to me again....... again. How is it you can fool me so easily. You are a smooth talker, and i should have seen it from the start. i should have listened to everyone when they told me you were bad news. i should have not be so foolish. you don't fucking deserve me. Go ahead. lie to yourself some more. i'm sure you are really happy. because everyone knows that life is only about sex. Sorry i wouldn't sleep with you.... my mistake. if you thought i was bitter before, wait till you see me now. you don't deserve to be happy. and i hope you regret what you have done.
heart. heart. heart.
♥ ♥ ♥