Mortification
So you know that dream where you’re naked in front of a room full of people? I’ve come to the conclusion that my life is more like that every day.
Here’s what happened:
Last night I was convinced that the 12th chapter to Daysleeper wasn’t going to get any better. And the more I stared at it editing things…. I don’t know I guess I was seeing what I wanted to see but anyways I posted the 12th chapter on fanfiction.net and guess what?
I FORGOT ONE OF THE BEST SCENES IN IT!!!!
You’ll ask yourself how does that happen?
Simple.
I do quite a bit of my writing in notebooks. That’s right folks, LONG HAND. As in sans computer. So what did this mean? There was a reason I had nightmares and a feeling of dread when I woke up this morning. And it had nothing to do with the fact that the semester starts on Tuesday. No as I re-read my brand new chapter on-line, my stomach did a flip and I realized what had happened.
Not only that I’d left a note to myself IN THE CHAPTER TO TYPE UP THE SCENE FROM MY NOTE BOOK!!!!
In Spanish there’s a saying, tragame tierra.
Literally devour me Earth.
This is what mortification feels like.
Because as most of you know… the virtual world is more often than not where we lay our hearts bare. Open for the slings and arrows of adversity. So when you make a huge mistake like this… wow its going to haunt me for AGES. (also on ff.net there’s this page view counter thing. Basically I knew the page had been clicked on at least 70 times… I’m going to need therapy.)
So what was there to do? Well typing up the scene and trying to fix everything in a mad rush for the next 2 hours was part of it.
And then fanfiction.net tells me there’s a document limit.
Please someone explain this to me.
So anyways I had to delete the last chapter which frankly I should have done as soon as I realized my mistake. WHATEVER I’M AN IDIOT.
A part of me never wants to post again. another part of me knows I have readers and thinks leaving them high and dry is a crappy thing to do. As it is I’ve put my So Be It story on hiatus because I couldn’t bring myself to finish the later story before the first one. (I’ve a problem with chronology, like belatedly realizing I’ve done things out of order.)
Oh I feel so very lost right now.
And emo, very, very emo.
Here’s what happened:
Last night I was convinced that the 12th chapter to Daysleeper wasn’t going to get any better. And the more I stared at it editing things…. I don’t know I guess I was seeing what I wanted to see but anyways I posted the 12th chapter on fanfiction.net and guess what?
I FORGOT ONE OF THE BEST SCENES IN IT!!!!
You’ll ask yourself how does that happen?
Simple.
I do quite a bit of my writing in notebooks. That’s right folks, LONG HAND. As in sans computer. So what did this mean? There was a reason I had nightmares and a feeling of dread when I woke up this morning. And it had nothing to do with the fact that the semester starts on Tuesday. No as I re-read my brand new chapter on-line, my stomach did a flip and I realized what had happened.
Not only that I’d left a note to myself IN THE CHAPTER TO TYPE UP THE SCENE FROM MY NOTE BOOK!!!!
In Spanish there’s a saying, tragame tierra.
Literally devour me Earth.
This is what mortification feels like.
Because as most of you know… the virtual world is more often than not where we lay our hearts bare. Open for the slings and arrows of adversity. So when you make a huge mistake like this… wow its going to haunt me for AGES. (also on ff.net there’s this page view counter thing. Basically I knew the page had been clicked on at least 70 times… I’m going to need therapy.)
So what was there to do? Well typing up the scene and trying to fix everything in a mad rush for the next 2 hours was part of it.
And then fanfiction.net tells me there’s a document limit.
Please someone explain this to me.
So anyways I had to delete the last chapter which frankly I should have done as soon as I realized my mistake. WHATEVER I’M AN IDIOT.
A part of me never wants to post again. another part of me knows I have readers and thinks leaving them high and dry is a crappy thing to do. As it is I’ve put my So Be It story on hiatus because I couldn’t bring myself to finish the later story before the first one. (I’ve a problem with chronology, like belatedly realizing I’ve done things out of order.)
Oh I feel so very lost right now.
And emo, very, very emo.