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Hi...yeah..
soooo...my cat Jack died last night. Before I cried myself to sleep, i held him through one of his seizures. I think that might've been his last one. Dave was here with me through the whole thing--he's my savior. He even buried him for me. My brother helped.They also buried Shelley and the two kittens that died from Mia's litter. We couldn't bury them right away because the ground was too frozen. My mom asked me which kitten I wanted to keep. I don't want to replace him. Ever. I don't want one of those kittens. Those kittens are worthless and could never mean as much to me as Jack did. My mom must think most of my things are replaceable. But they aren't. I miss Shelley-the two mice she bought me to replace her are little jumpy things that bite. Not sweet and gentle like Shelley. So much death. I hate it. It's too much. Happy fucking easter break.
Someone cheer me up.
I'm going to hang out with my Amanda later...she's so awesome. Even though we only get to hang for a few hours, i'm sure she'll make me feel better. Even if it's only talking- it'll take my mind off of missing my best friend Jack. All of my friends know how much that cat meant to me. My grandma spent a hundred dollars on him. For me. That's not why he meant so much to me though. He hugged me. He did. I swear. I can't explain it. Some people know what I'm talking about.
Dave's coming back later. I miss him already.
I'm gonna go take a shower. Then a nap. Hopefully, it'll be nine by the time I'm done doing those things. Call me if you want. Give me something to look forward too until 9ish. Please. <3
soooo...my cat Jack died last night. Before I cried myself to sleep, i held him through one of his seizures. I think that might've been his last one. Dave was here with me through the whole thing--he's my savior. He even buried him for me. My brother helped.They also buried Shelley and the two kittens that died from Mia's litter. We couldn't bury them right away because the ground was too frozen. My mom asked me which kitten I wanted to keep. I don't want to replace him. Ever. I don't want one of those kittens. Those kittens are worthless and could never mean as much to me as Jack did. My mom must think most of my things are replaceable. But they aren't. I miss Shelley-the two mice she bought me to replace her are little jumpy things that bite. Not sweet and gentle like Shelley. So much death. I hate it. It's too much. Happy fucking easter break.
Someone cheer me up.
I'm going to hang out with my Amanda later...she's so awesome. Even though we only get to hang for a few hours, i'm sure she'll make me feel better. Even if it's only talking- it'll take my mind off of missing my best friend Jack. All of my friends know how much that cat meant to me. My grandma spent a hundred dollars on him. For me. That's not why he meant so much to me though. He hugged me. He did. I swear. I can't explain it. Some people know what I'm talking about.
Dave's coming back later. I miss him already.
I'm gonna go take a shower. Then a nap. Hopefully, it'll be nine by the time I'm done doing those things. Call me if you want. Give me something to look forward too until 9ish. Please. <3