Reflecting
Ever since I made a the decision not to make the "big move," I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I've been reflecting on my life and my current situation and I'm beginning to feel much happier about where I am at. I know the past year I've been disatisfied with my personal life which lead me to feel this need that if I just left Boise, I would be much happier. And I'm sure I would have been happy but I also would have been filled with regret leaving my friends and family and I probably would have driven myself further into debt.
I just want to say thank you to all of my friends (even though many of them don't read this journal and will probably never see this) but they have been so supportive throughout all this and have helped me so much by just letting me talk through my thoughts and helped me come to this decision.
My friends and my past relationships have been on my mind recently and I feel awful how I've lost touch with so many people. I think it's high time that I try reconnect with some of them. I've began the process last night. I created a Facebook profile and have already gotten in touch with several of my old sorority sisters and a few Pepperdine friends.
It surprises me that I lost touch with so many of them. (But then again, I guess it shouldn't since I'm so lazy when it comes to actually making an effort to write a damn email!) My friends have always been very imporant to me. They have been my pillars of support. They have helped my define myself by giving me the confidence to express myself and just be me. I know in many ways I'm still the same person as I was in high school but I know that if I've changed so much as well. This change is mostly due to my experiences at Pepperdine and, of course, my friends who allowed me to grow as an individual and taught me that I can be assertive, that I don't need to make everyone happy, and that I do have important things to say and I need to speak my mind. So to all of them, I say thank you.
Well I probably should go to bed. I have a long day ahead of me. The computer we use to scan and print checks died today so we had to enter all of our work the old way and do a tape. No big deal, right? Except that tomorrow is our check printing day and I have to balance in the morning which is hard when I can't run the reports to our work to since none of us indexed any images. Crapola.