ramblings
Well, I finished the "thing" I had with that bloke a while AGO.
I think the main purpose he had (which is nasty but true) was to make me realise a few things about my life at the moment.
1. I no longer have any feelings towards Matt - either love nor hate. I resent him for the way he has treated my daughter because she deserves better but then hes the one losing out, not me. And Marni WILL have a lovely dad one day.
2. I dont know if Im ready for a relationship of any serious nature right now. (but then a woman has other needs ;o))
3. I miss having LOTS of sex... (say no more)
4. I want to find someone who has genuine feelings for me and Marni that I can trust and that I can have fun with.
It pisses me off that even now, nearly a year after me and Matt split, he still has an influence over who i can and cant spend my time with!!!
I think the main purpose he had (which is nasty but true) was to make me realise a few things about my life at the moment.
1. I no longer have any feelings towards Matt - either love nor hate. I resent him for the way he has treated my daughter because she deserves better but then hes the one losing out, not me. And Marni WILL have a lovely dad one day.
2. I dont know if Im ready for a relationship of any serious nature right now. (but then a woman has other needs ;o))
3. I miss having LOTS of sex... (say no more)
4. I want to find someone who has genuine feelings for me and Marni that I can trust and that I can have fun with.
It pisses me off that even now, nearly a year after me and Matt split, he still has an influence over who i can and cant spend my time with!!!