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I am so fuckin sick of this shit. Everything. School, cheerleading, teachers, my parents, everything. I HATE school... my grades are SO bad this year and i dont know why.. i just cant concentrate, i think because i dont want to do the work so i cant concentrate enough to do it. And now i haveta get a fucking tutor in geometry (like i have time for that) because i am so lost... and have been since like chapter 3 but i havent said anything. I dread waking up every morning before school because i know i haveta go there and its not fun. My oral in spanish ? Yea i definately knew the whole thing but was i able to say it in front of the class? No. i totally forgot it after like, the third or fourth sentence. Im sick of studying really hard for hours and it doesnt show. If this is what its gonna be like in IB for the next 2 years... screw that im dropping out after this year. Its so gay - i cant take it anymore. i get a total of 5 hours of sleep every night and with cheerleading and games and stuff im exhausted all the time. Im so sick of seeing him in the halls everyday and knowing that i cant have him for whatever reason. Its literally on my mind all the time... Im seriously obsessed ... like going mental and theres nothing i can do about it. What the fuck were they thinking on Saturday night? Dont they know that some mistakes you just cant take back????