Gratitude
I am grateful for chores. They give me some place to put my energy. I'm also grateful for being so busy at work because it forces me to focus on non-emotional things.
Otherwise, today is a worm-food day. It's one of those times when my inability to communicate a perspective is making me want to jump off a bridge. Honestly, I'm on emotional overload.
I've written about ten sentences and then erased them one by one... because I know I'm feeling dramatic and extreme... and I know that I'll quiet back down again. So, all of the angst is just wasted energy.
I'm tired of wasting my energy... and I'm tired of trying to find peaceful middle-grounds only to have the effort thrown back in my face. I need about six weeks in a cave.
I'm grateful for caves. If only I had one handy.
I think I've made a decision today. A life-time sort of decision.
Otherwise, today is a worm-food day. It's one of those times when my inability to communicate a perspective is making me want to jump off a bridge. Honestly, I'm on emotional overload.
I've written about ten sentences and then erased them one by one... because I know I'm feeling dramatic and extreme... and I know that I'll quiet back down again. So, all of the angst is just wasted energy.
I'm tired of wasting my energy... and I'm tired of trying to find peaceful middle-grounds only to have the effort thrown back in my face. I need about six weeks in a cave.
I'm grateful for caves. If only I had one handy.
I think I've made a decision today. A life-time sort of decision.