Rip Me Into Pieces. . .
Ok the past couple of weeks my hormones have been off the chart. I had to stop my birth control for the surgery. Ever since I stopped taking it I’ve become very emotionally and enraged quite easily. Just about everyday I end up crying over something and last night was not a good night.
Ron and I made plans to meet up somewhere in Kendall and he would follow me to my father’s work so I could drop off the truck. Well Tracey miami_princess came home yesterday from being with her boyfriend. I told her that since I had to drop Mom off for the sleep study I could give her a ride back to Gabriel’s. Somehow Ron and I got confused on what was planned. I had told Ron to call me when he was close to Kendall; well instead he called me when he was in Kendall. I dropped Tracey off and I lent Gabriel use my phone, Ron called just as I was leaving. We decided to meet on Eureka Dr. and go from there. But seeing how he was already ahead of me he got mad. I got to Eureka Drive. As I was driving to meet up with Ron, we got into a big argument. Basically he was saying that I don’t put him first and that I put everyone else in front of him. When that isn’t true, when I got off the phone I called Mom. I was in tears really bad and driving is not that easy. Mom tried to calm me down and she decided to call Ron to let him know that it was her fault and that he has got to realize that Tracey is like my sister and we’ve known each other forever and that Mallery is going to help Tracey out over you. I finally meet up with Ron and he follows me to Dad’s work. We talked sort in the truck on the ride home.
When we got home Ron was saying that if this continues I am going to lose him. Supposedly this was the third time we were supposed to meet up and I was late. When actually it was only twice, the first time was because of traffic. Ron told me to forget about it and not to worry. I am worried because I don’t want to lose him. I love Ron a lot and he means good to me. Last night we ate dinner and then went to bed. I could definitely feel the tension because he was upset. Though in bed he held me in his arms like he always does.
I try so hard to be there for everyone but it seems like I can’t please anyone. All I want is for everyone to be happy and when I’m needed I need others to realize I can’t please everyone. I can’t be cut into pieces or divide myself into pieces so that everyone can be pleased.
I woke this morning at 5:15 am, basically the same time as Ron. I normally go back to sleep but I couldn’t today. After Ron got dress and everything he came over to the bed to me sat down and put his head on me. He is getting the flu and working long hours. He really needs a couple of days off. I told Ron he should stay home and stay in bed but he refused and went to work.
My phone started ringing at 6:50am and I looked and it was Ron. He called to apologize for last night. I told him its okay and no to worry about it. But he kept saying sorry and doesn’t want to have these stupid fights. Needless to say we are back on good terms. I hate it when he gets upset.
What do you do when you have your best friend and boyfriend wanting you at the same time?
Ron and I made plans to meet up somewhere in Kendall and he would follow me to my father’s work so I could drop off the truck. Well Tracey miami_princess came home yesterday from being with her boyfriend. I told her that since I had to drop Mom off for the sleep study I could give her a ride back to Gabriel’s. Somehow Ron and I got confused on what was planned. I had told Ron to call me when he was close to Kendall; well instead he called me when he was in Kendall. I dropped Tracey off and I lent Gabriel use my phone, Ron called just as I was leaving. We decided to meet on Eureka Dr. and go from there. But seeing how he was already ahead of me he got mad. I got to Eureka Drive. As I was driving to meet up with Ron, we got into a big argument. Basically he was saying that I don’t put him first and that I put everyone else in front of him. When that isn’t true, when I got off the phone I called Mom. I was in tears really bad and driving is not that easy. Mom tried to calm me down and she decided to call Ron to let him know that it was her fault and that he has got to realize that Tracey is like my sister and we’ve known each other forever and that Mallery is going to help Tracey out over you. I finally meet up with Ron and he follows me to Dad’s work. We talked sort in the truck on the ride home.
When we got home Ron was saying that if this continues I am going to lose him. Supposedly this was the third time we were supposed to meet up and I was late. When actually it was only twice, the first time was because of traffic. Ron told me to forget about it and not to worry. I am worried because I don’t want to lose him. I love Ron a lot and he means good to me. Last night we ate dinner and then went to bed. I could definitely feel the tension because he was upset. Though in bed he held me in his arms like he always does.
I try so hard to be there for everyone but it seems like I can’t please anyone. All I want is for everyone to be happy and when I’m needed I need others to realize I can’t please everyone. I can’t be cut into pieces or divide myself into pieces so that everyone can be pleased.
I woke this morning at 5:15 am, basically the same time as Ron. I normally go back to sleep but I couldn’t today. After Ron got dress and everything he came over to the bed to me sat down and put his head on me. He is getting the flu and working long hours. He really needs a couple of days off. I told Ron he should stay home and stay in bed but he refused and went to work.
My phone started ringing at 6:50am and I looked and it was Ron. He called to apologize for last night. I told him its okay and no to worry about it. But he kept saying sorry and doesn’t want to have these stupid fights. Needless to say we are back on good terms. I hate it when he gets upset.
What do you do when you have your best friend and boyfriend wanting you at the same time?