I'm so HAPPY! ! !
So I haven’t written in a while, mainly because not much is going on really. Same ole thing, just different day.
Last night just before Ron and I went to sleep I decided to talk to him about somethings. He was just about asleep but I knew he heard everything I said. I told Ron how I miss talking to him on his lunch break (which lately he hasn’t been taking one); how I miss the good morning messages he used to leave on my phone; how I used to talk to him the whole drive when he would be on the way home. I liked it better when people didn’t know that we were dating. It seems like every sense people know he stopped doing those small little things that I liked so much. Though I do have to admit he has been there for me whenever I have been sick or needed him. Like when I found out I had cancer he was the first person I told and he said that it doesn’t matter he is there for me and he has been. He was with me the whole day and night that I had surgery. I still wonder if dating him is right. I know and have always said age is just a number, but that isn’t the only factor he’s black too. I’m definitely not racist, I’m just afraid of what my family will think of him it things were to get more serious then it is now. Please I need some advice here, anything can help me.
Today started off good then went straight to terrible. Ron called me at 6:30am and I answered the phone, come to find out I wasn’t suppose to because he was going to leave a good morning message (I was really happy to know that he was going to that). I had to get up at 7 am anyways so that was no biggie. It felt good to wake up to hear the one you love and loves you back. When I came home this morning Mom was still sleeping and Dad told me to get her up. Well Mom was having a hard time waking up and next thing I knew Dad and I had a huge argument. I ended the argument by yelling “I wish I never knew you and you weren’t my father,” and I went into my room and slammed the door behind me. That woke Tracey miami_princess up and I apologized for the way I woke her up. Mom and I had a doctor’s appointment with Dr. Lee (my ob/gyn). I get dress and gather my things and wait outside for Mom and Tracey. I didn’t say one word to Dad. Instead I wrote another great poem.
When I saw Dr. Lee he told me that he got the pathology report back from the surgery that he did last week. Dr. Lee said “you have the two different types of cervical cancer that a woman can get. When I did the biopsy in January you had one kind but when I removed the tissue from last week it came up another type of cancer. I am having another team of pathologist look at for a second opinion. This is how we are going to treat it; you are going to have to get a PAP Smear every 3-4 months to keep an eye on it. I am pretty sure that I got all the cancer and that it has not spread, so that is a good thing. As for the symptoms you are having now it is because of the antibiotics I gave you last week so I am going to give you this pill that will kill this infection.” To hear that it brighten up my day. I was so happy inside; I think my guts were having a party in there, LOL.
When we returned home Dad acted like nothing ever happened. Little does he know I am still mad at him and will be until he can straighten up. I am going to ignore him and everything.
In other news I am still going to try and pursue suing the man who raped/molested me. I want to pay for it big time. Yeah he is in jail not but I want him to pay for it even more. He caused so much mental damage to me and now I find out that he is the cause that I have cervical cancer, oh no he is going to pay for it BIG TIME!
Now that I got the cancer situation under control it is time for me to set some goals for this year.
MY GOALS
1~ Start college in the Summer Term.
2~ Lose at least 45 pounds.
3~ Exercise regularly.
4~ Cut out all juice, soda, and junk food.
5~ Higher my self-esteem.
6~ Keep in touch with my sister more.
7~ Get back into Church.
8~ Be less sinful.
9~ No more smoking.
10~ No more drinking until I turn 21 and even then not a lot of alcohol.
Staying Crunk & Keeping it Real
MalFutureMD
~Mal~
Last night just before Ron and I went to sleep I decided to talk to him about somethings. He was just about asleep but I knew he heard everything I said. I told Ron how I miss talking to him on his lunch break (which lately he hasn’t been taking one); how I miss the good morning messages he used to leave on my phone; how I used to talk to him the whole drive when he would be on the way home. I liked it better when people didn’t know that we were dating. It seems like every sense people know he stopped doing those small little things that I liked so much. Though I do have to admit he has been there for me whenever I have been sick or needed him. Like when I found out I had cancer he was the first person I told and he said that it doesn’t matter he is there for me and he has been. He was with me the whole day and night that I had surgery. I still wonder if dating him is right. I know and have always said age is just a number, but that isn’t the only factor he’s black too. I’m definitely not racist, I’m just afraid of what my family will think of him it things were to get more serious then it is now. Please I need some advice here, anything can help me.
Today started off good then went straight to terrible. Ron called me at 6:30am and I answered the phone, come to find out I wasn’t suppose to because he was going to leave a good morning message (I was really happy to know that he was going to that). I had to get up at 7 am anyways so that was no biggie. It felt good to wake up to hear the one you love and loves you back. When I came home this morning Mom was still sleeping and Dad told me to get her up. Well Mom was having a hard time waking up and next thing I knew Dad and I had a huge argument. I ended the argument by yelling “I wish I never knew you and you weren’t my father,” and I went into my room and slammed the door behind me. That woke Tracey miami_princess up and I apologized for the way I woke her up. Mom and I had a doctor’s appointment with Dr. Lee (my ob/gyn). I get dress and gather my things and wait outside for Mom and Tracey. I didn’t say one word to Dad. Instead I wrote another great poem.
When I saw Dr. Lee he told me that he got the pathology report back from the surgery that he did last week. Dr. Lee said “you have the two different types of cervical cancer that a woman can get. When I did the biopsy in January you had one kind but when I removed the tissue from last week it came up another type of cancer. I am having another team of pathologist look at for a second opinion. This is how we are going to treat it; you are going to have to get a PAP Smear every 3-4 months to keep an eye on it. I am pretty sure that I got all the cancer and that it has not spread, so that is a good thing. As for the symptoms you are having now it is because of the antibiotics I gave you last week so I am going to give you this pill that will kill this infection.” To hear that it brighten up my day. I was so happy inside; I think my guts were having a party in there, LOL.
When we returned home Dad acted like nothing ever happened. Little does he know I am still mad at him and will be until he can straighten up. I am going to ignore him and everything.
In other news I am still going to try and pursue suing the man who raped/molested me. I want to pay for it big time. Yeah he is in jail not but I want him to pay for it even more. He caused so much mental damage to me and now I find out that he is the cause that I have cervical cancer, oh no he is going to pay for it BIG TIME!
Now that I got the cancer situation under control it is time for me to set some goals for this year.
MY GOALS
1~ Start college in the Summer Term.
2~ Lose at least 45 pounds.
3~ Exercise regularly.
4~ Cut out all juice, soda, and junk food.
5~ Higher my self-esteem.
6~ Keep in touch with my sister more.
7~ Get back into Church.
8~ Be less sinful.
9~ No more smoking.
10~ No more drinking until I turn 21 and even then not a lot of alcohol.
Staying Crunk & Keeping it Real
MalFutureMD
~Mal~