People act like they love you, but how do you ever know it's real?
So now I'm being threatened by my friend(s)?
You think you can trust people. They say that they will always do what is best for you, even if it makes them unhappy. They want you to be happy.
Obviously, people lie. There are so many things that I have apparently forgotten in the past year or so. I've become less jaded. I've been given a new sense of... dare I say "hope"? My "faith"in people had been something like... renewed. Damn, I'm a bit naive, aren't I?
Lessons need to be either relearned, or remembered. I would obviously prefer remembered, but I've never been one to do things the easy way, have I?
I'm unsure who I'm most disappointed in - people and humanity as a whole, my "friend(s)", or myself. I'll give you three guesses which it is, but anyone who knows me at all will only need one.
*sigh*
Why do I do these things to myself? I leave myself open, I know I do. My fault.
I have so much in my head that I want to get down here, for various reasons. I need to get it out. People need to see it. Mostly I need to get i out. Maybe if I do, I'll wake up and realize that I've apparently been too careless, too lenient, with who I've let get close to me. Who I've let myself care about. As I said though, my own fault. I shall have to go back to being more careful.
Which means if you think you've started noticing that I've gone back to being a complete bitch, it's because I have. But you know what? Fuck you, because I don't care if you think I'm a bitch.
MalFois.
PS. I'm craving new music. Any kind of music. Give me ideas. Guitar/bass/drums/harsh vocals. Instrumental. I think I've got enough EBM to last a while, although always feel free to introduce me to more. I'd like more EBM that's Psyclon Nine-ish, with screamed vocals. Give me music. Now.
You think you can trust people. They say that they will always do what is best for you, even if it makes them unhappy. They want you to be happy.
Obviously, people lie. There are so many things that I have apparently forgotten in the past year or so. I've become less jaded. I've been given a new sense of... dare I say "hope"? My "faith"in people had been something like... renewed. Damn, I'm a bit naive, aren't I?
Lessons need to be either relearned, or remembered. I would obviously prefer remembered, but I've never been one to do things the easy way, have I?
I'm unsure who I'm most disappointed in - people and humanity as a whole, my "friend(s)", or myself. I'll give you three guesses which it is, but anyone who knows me at all will only need one.
*sigh*
Why do I do these things to myself? I leave myself open, I know I do. My fault.
I have so much in my head that I want to get down here, for various reasons. I need to get it out. People need to see it. Mostly I need to get i out. Maybe if I do, I'll wake up and realize that I've apparently been too careless, too lenient, with who I've let get close to me. Who I've let myself care about. As I said though, my own fault. I shall have to go back to being more careful.
Which means if you think you've started noticing that I've gone back to being a complete bitch, it's because I have. But you know what? Fuck you, because I don't care if you think I'm a bitch.
MalFois.
PS. I'm craving new music. Any kind of music. Give me ideas. Guitar/bass/drums/harsh vocals. Instrumental. I think I've got enough EBM to last a while, although always feel free to introduce me to more. I'd like more EBM that's Psyclon Nine-ish, with screamed vocals. Give me music. Now.