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I talked to Zack today around 7:00pm. I deserve everything! Ok ya'll I had cheated on Zack but, didn't want to come through with it. He was pissed and hurt about it so he moved on. I really FUCKED UP. I can totally understand that. I miss him so much. When we talked today we yelled, cried & just grr.. it plain out sucked. It sucked to the point after 2 hours we finally let eachother go. I can't believe we are over for good. I can't handle a relationship and be true. He thinks I had hooked up w/ Jimmy a week after he went back to TX. Um, no I swear to God I didn't. It bugs me so much. I wanted him and he kept telling me how much he cared about me. I wanted to get on a plane and jump into his arms and beg for his forgiveness. How stupid could I have been. It's like at 1st when it all happended I was like w/e.. it will be ok.. simple things but, he took it harder then what I thought. He took it so hard that since we liked each other since we were young that he fucking moved on for good this time. I need him ya'll. He told me to get over him and that he does not want to speak with me for awhile because he's so pissed. I guess I can just say how sorry I am from the bottom of my heart and that I wish I could earse everything and start over and be the happy couple that we were. I just can't belive it. I'm shocked! Remember: what goes around comes around. I got nailed right in the ass. It hurts so much. I hate myself! I want Zack!
Today school was great. I looked so adorable and so did Mandy. After school I went by my work got my pay check then Mandy and I went to the Edison mall, Mom's work, met some guys on the street and talked and met them some place & then to my buddy Derek's place. BTW.. I beat the shit out of Chad! My left arm is purple though but, we fought for 3 hours. I like kept mooning cars and them! Haha. Ya'll know you loved my boobs & ass. I just don't even care fo real! LOL. I'm home now talking to friends online thinking about Zack and drinking a nice cold coke! I need like drugs or something to make me chill out. I try to be hyper and crazy to get over the shit between Zack and I. I just won't get started. I have nothing else to say.
Tomorrow after school I'm babysitting this cute lil girl and then Mandy & I have plans w/ the boys! I say I streak drunk! LOL. I love ya'll. I'm going to go. Peace!
Today school was great. I looked so adorable and so did Mandy. After school I went by my work got my pay check then Mandy and I went to the Edison mall, Mom's work, met some guys on the street and talked and met them some place & then to my buddy Derek's place. BTW.. I beat the shit out of Chad! My left arm is purple though but, we fought for 3 hours. I like kept mooning cars and them! Haha. Ya'll know you loved my boobs & ass. I just don't even care fo real! LOL. I'm home now talking to friends online thinking about Zack and drinking a nice cold coke! I need like drugs or something to make me chill out. I try to be hyper and crazy to get over the shit between Zack and I. I just won't get started. I have nothing else to say.
Tomorrow after school I'm babysitting this cute lil girl and then Mandy & I have plans w/ the boys! I say I streak drunk! LOL. I love ya'll. I'm going to go. Peace!