Goodness. Angry me.
I was definately angry last night.
veeeery angry.
I've calmed down now though. I had a drink with my parents and I talked about how misanthropy has replaced optimism in my life and blah blah blah.
I'm changing my email and only giving it to a select few people. I really am glad this happened. It's taught me so much and made it easy for me to disassociate myself from that group of people. From highschool!!!
My mom kept telling my to hate nick before, but I said I couldn't. She said it was healthy to hate him. I said that I would if I could, but I can't. But now I can, and it's awesome. It's like he pushed me with the intention of knocking my over but instead propelled me towards something great.
I have such a DRIVE now. The drive to meet REAL people. Intelligent people with compassion and an appreciation of good people and life! I want to create things, I want to better myself as a person.
I feel so strong now.
Like if someone did anything that I didnt like, i would't be afraid to bring it up. I no longer have the desperate desire to make people like me. Or even CARE about what people think of me.
I honestly dont care now.
Because I've learned that a lot of people just aren't worth the effort.
So nick, have a great time boning emily.
And I hope the both of you exchange various venereal diseases.
Toodles!
Amanda
veeeery angry.
I've calmed down now though. I had a drink with my parents and I talked about how misanthropy has replaced optimism in my life and blah blah blah.
I'm changing my email and only giving it to a select few people. I really am glad this happened. It's taught me so much and made it easy for me to disassociate myself from that group of people. From highschool!!!
My mom kept telling my to hate nick before, but I said I couldn't. She said it was healthy to hate him. I said that I would if I could, but I can't. But now I can, and it's awesome. It's like he pushed me with the intention of knocking my over but instead propelled me towards something great.
I have such a DRIVE now. The drive to meet REAL people. Intelligent people with compassion and an appreciation of good people and life! I want to create things, I want to better myself as a person.
I feel so strong now.
Like if someone did anything that I didnt like, i would't be afraid to bring it up. I no longer have the desperate desire to make people like me. Or even CARE about what people think of me.
I honestly dont care now.
Because I've learned that a lot of people just aren't worth the effort.
So nick, have a great time boning emily.
And I hope the both of you exchange various venereal diseases.
Toodles!
Amanda