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Oh my, it's been a while... Life's been kinda stagnate and uninteresting lately... just the same old shit- the last month or two I've just been waiting for this damn semester to END... and it does- TOMORROW! Yessssss! Finally! It's not that I'm looking forward to break, I'm just severely frustrated that I'm so far behind in school and I feel like I'm NEVER going to graduate... not at THIS rate! Granted that I'm only pushed back one year... I'll be 23! I know girls who JUST turned 21 and they're ALREADY graduated! I always wanted to go to a vocational school, but now I'm stuck at a goddamn school that has UNNECCESSARY amounts of gen ed's! oh AND it's $30,000 a year! I don't even know if I can stay at this school, but it's the ONLY school in the area that has Interior Design! The next closest school is in Philly and there's NO way I'm going to live in a big city... Sometimes I wonder if I should've left Tampa in the first place... I had friends there, there were TWO art schools that BOTH have interior design... oh yeah and there's NO FUCKING SNOW! Maybe I should've thought this one out more before I'd packed up and moved to Pennsylvania... But TJ's worth it, isn't he? I can see myself marrying him and having his babies eventually... he's ALWAYS treated me great, he's loyal, he's sweet, he's a wonderful person, i admire him, i love him... But i've felt so lonely and out of place here! Marywood is okay, but not great- i ACTUALLY like UT a LOT better than here- as much as I claimed to hate it them... If they had my major, I might've stayed! But then the other part of me thinks... well, MAYBE I loved Tampa so much because TJ made it great for me- Most of my good memories of Tampa involve him... I don't know... I can't change the past, can I?
Anyways, I'm done with school tomorrow. I presented my English Final Project last wednesday, I took my Psych Final last Thursday... Today I had my portfolio Review with Dennis for 2D design (before he'd looked at my work he said "You get an A") Tomorrow I have class for 3D and then a portfolio review with Dennis for Basic Drawing... I'm leaving school on wednesday and then I'll be in Bloomsburg with TJ until Saturday (I NEED some time alone with him- especially before I leave him for 3 or 4 weeks) and then Sunday I'm doing the god-forsaken 12 hour drive from Pennsylvania to Illinois... I have family in Indianapolis that I want to visit on the way, but that's still 9 or 10 hours away! It's gonna SUCK driving it alone! And theeeeen I'll be in Wheaton for an entire month... HOPEFULLY I'll be working at Potbelly for the break, but I haven't been able to get ahold of Lance since Thanksgiving... I talked to Greg Musinski today and he said that they seemed like they needed help. Honestly though, I really want break to go by QUICKLY! I'm sure it will with working and christmas and new year's... PLUS, TJ's coming down to visit my ROOTS for a few days in January and then we'll drive back...
Honestly though... I just want these next 88 days to go by FAST... I just want to be fucking 21 already! Well, 21 is just a number, I don't exactly PLAN to go to bars much (not in Scranton anyways! Scary!) but I'll be able to order a glass of wine with dinner instead of water, you know? Other than that, TJ's taking me to Tampa for my birthday... I just want to be in fucking Tampa... I miss it soooo badly! I'll get to see all my friends there... Kirsten, Kelly, Jim, Jeff, Candace, Summer, Jacob, Russ, Tiffany, Ron, Terisa, Erica... just so many people that I really liked being around... I'm going to go to Soho Sushi and Bonefish... I'll FINALLY get to go to all those fabulous bars that i'd never been able to visit before! I dunno... I just want time to go by quickly... and I really shouldn't because I know I should be stopping to smell the roses and enjoying the little things about life... Living my life to the fullest or something like that... I just feel restricted here... like I'm not flourishing... Like i'm just kinda here, exsisting... I don't know..
No, i'm not all depressed and worrysome ALL the time, but these are the things that've been weighing my mind down and HOPEFULLY I'll feel better when it's all off my chest. Not that posting an insanely long LJ will solve anything or make it any better... It's all in my head. It's all something I need to deal with, I suppose... Anyways, I gave you my agenda- feel free to IM me or Message me whenever.
xoxo
Anyways, I'm done with school tomorrow. I presented my English Final Project last wednesday, I took my Psych Final last Thursday... Today I had my portfolio Review with Dennis for 2D design (before he'd looked at my work he said "You get an A") Tomorrow I have class for 3D and then a portfolio review with Dennis for Basic Drawing... I'm leaving school on wednesday and then I'll be in Bloomsburg with TJ until Saturday (I NEED some time alone with him- especially before I leave him for 3 or 4 weeks) and then Sunday I'm doing the god-forsaken 12 hour drive from Pennsylvania to Illinois... I have family in Indianapolis that I want to visit on the way, but that's still 9 or 10 hours away! It's gonna SUCK driving it alone! And theeeeen I'll be in Wheaton for an entire month... HOPEFULLY I'll be working at Potbelly for the break, but I haven't been able to get ahold of Lance since Thanksgiving... I talked to Greg Musinski today and he said that they seemed like they needed help. Honestly though, I really want break to go by QUICKLY! I'm sure it will with working and christmas and new year's... PLUS, TJ's coming down to visit my ROOTS for a few days in January and then we'll drive back...
Honestly though... I just want these next 88 days to go by FAST... I just want to be fucking 21 already! Well, 21 is just a number, I don't exactly PLAN to go to bars much (not in Scranton anyways! Scary!) but I'll be able to order a glass of wine with dinner instead of water, you know? Other than that, TJ's taking me to Tampa for my birthday... I just want to be in fucking Tampa... I miss it soooo badly! I'll get to see all my friends there... Kirsten, Kelly, Jim, Jeff, Candace, Summer, Jacob, Russ, Tiffany, Ron, Terisa, Erica... just so many people that I really liked being around... I'm going to go to Soho Sushi and Bonefish... I'll FINALLY get to go to all those fabulous bars that i'd never been able to visit before! I dunno... I just want time to go by quickly... and I really shouldn't because I know I should be stopping to smell the roses and enjoying the little things about life... Living my life to the fullest or something like that... I just feel restricted here... like I'm not flourishing... Like i'm just kinda here, exsisting... I don't know..
No, i'm not all depressed and worrysome ALL the time, but these are the things that've been weighing my mind down and HOPEFULLY I'll feel better when it's all off my chest. Not that posting an insanely long LJ will solve anything or make it any better... It's all in my head. It's all something I need to deal with, I suppose... Anyways, I gave you my agenda- feel free to IM me or Message me whenever.
xoxo