Scorch the angels out from the skies..
Friday was Jesses and James's birthday party.
Good times went on and will be remembered.
The next morning was not so pleasent.
If you don't know already, my Aunt Pam passed away at our house and litterly right next to me while I was sleeping.
I was the last person to see her at 5:30am.
The whole morning had been a twisted time mixed with sadness, anger and deep pain.
Called Josh and re-timed my tryout from noonish to 2:30pm.
He said I didn't need to tryout today and don't be in a rush and take my time.
So I managed to get ahold of Jessica and told her I should be at her house around 1:30ish.
Jesse's father had left so Tiffany had no ride home.
After the dreadful morning, my Dad made food and told me to eat before I go tryout.
After eating we left and I dropped off Tiffany.
Once reaching Tiffany's Ashley told me just maybe a minute before arriving that Jessica was not going to wait for me any longer. So I drove as fast as possible to her house to find her gone.
So being the good people they are, Tiffany, Jesse, Ashley and Adam managed to get everything right so I could tryout.
So Ashley and I met Chris, Josh and Travis at the Maine Mall.
Josh complained about being at the Mall since 1pm, but then just said he was giving me shit and everything is cool.
On the way to the tryout we went 90mph to Freeport, played blinker tag, Josh and I took 10mins to figure out the Exon gas station thing and we made it there around 4ish.
The tryout was a good time. I did what I could and am now waiting for an result. I wish they would have wanted to pratice more but it was late, since they pratice around 1pm most times. I apologized to the band about the lateness and they said it was fine and not to worry about it.
So what I find interesting is that 3 guys who don't even know me and met me for the first time, besides Josh, were completely ok with me being late and had no problem with it what so ever. Yet Jessica couldent wait maybe another 5mins?
Since we're on the subject, Jessica I couldent call you because my family, who is more important than you are, was using the phone to get ahold of important people and family. So don't bitch about me not calling you.
And last I knew, YOU wanted to come. I was going to take Tiffany, but no you were so keen on being there for me that you didn't want to miss it.
So I'm so fucking sorry to make YOU wait when it was not even ABOUT YOU.
It was ABOUT ME. MY TRYOUT, ME. You have no fucking idea of what I was going through. The pain, the nervousness, the thought that I worked so god damn hard on something to get nothing. And you decide to leave me stranded.
As I said before, it's sad how 5 guys, including Chris and Travis, who don't even know a god damn thing about me were completely fine on waiting for 4 extra hours because they had a concept of what I was going through. But hay you were never there before so I don't even know why I should have expected you to be there then. And don't bitch out Tiffany because she was just being a friend who cares. Oh and you won't be able to go to anymore pratices or tryouts if I have them due to them hateing you very very much and I don't want you to come anyways. So you made it onto a lot of people's shitlist, congrats!
So to end this, thanks for nothing and fuck you.
Besides that, chilled at Tiffany's until this morning.
Coming home alone was hard, my Mom is still in pain and it's hard to look into my Dad's eyes. Mother told me to call Mouse and tell her what happened.
So I did and she showed up later on with her sister.
After staying here we went to her house where she braided my hair within an hour and a half, which is insane.
Mouse, Tiffany and Jesse are attending my Aunt's wake and burial(sp?) this Wensday and Thursday.
Thank you guys for being here for me and my family.
As for the Hollow Image tryout, I don't know anything new yet.
Still need to talk to Josh.
Now all I can do is hope..
Love you tons Mouse
*hugs and kisses*
Thanks Tiff for being here when you could and helping me out with the tryout.
*big hugs*
Good times went on and will be remembered.
The next morning was not so pleasent.
If you don't know already, my Aunt Pam passed away at our house and litterly right next to me while I was sleeping.
I was the last person to see her at 5:30am.
The whole morning had been a twisted time mixed with sadness, anger and deep pain.
Called Josh and re-timed my tryout from noonish to 2:30pm.
He said I didn't need to tryout today and don't be in a rush and take my time.
So I managed to get ahold of Jessica and told her I should be at her house around 1:30ish.
Jesse's father had left so Tiffany had no ride home.
After the dreadful morning, my Dad made food and told me to eat before I go tryout.
After eating we left and I dropped off Tiffany.
Once reaching Tiffany's Ashley told me just maybe a minute before arriving that Jessica was not going to wait for me any longer. So I drove as fast as possible to her house to find her gone.
So being the good people they are, Tiffany, Jesse, Ashley and Adam managed to get everything right so I could tryout.
So Ashley and I met Chris, Josh and Travis at the Maine Mall.
Josh complained about being at the Mall since 1pm, but then just said he was giving me shit and everything is cool.
On the way to the tryout we went 90mph to Freeport, played blinker tag, Josh and I took 10mins to figure out the Exon gas station thing and we made it there around 4ish.
The tryout was a good time. I did what I could and am now waiting for an result. I wish they would have wanted to pratice more but it was late, since they pratice around 1pm most times. I apologized to the band about the lateness and they said it was fine and not to worry about it.
So what I find interesting is that 3 guys who don't even know me and met me for the first time, besides Josh, were completely ok with me being late and had no problem with it what so ever. Yet Jessica couldent wait maybe another 5mins?
Since we're on the subject, Jessica I couldent call you because my family, who is more important than you are, was using the phone to get ahold of important people and family. So don't bitch about me not calling you.
And last I knew, YOU wanted to come. I was going to take Tiffany, but no you were so keen on being there for me that you didn't want to miss it.
So I'm so fucking sorry to make YOU wait when it was not even ABOUT YOU.
It was ABOUT ME. MY TRYOUT, ME. You have no fucking idea of what I was going through. The pain, the nervousness, the thought that I worked so god damn hard on something to get nothing. And you decide to leave me stranded.
As I said before, it's sad how 5 guys, including Chris and Travis, who don't even know a god damn thing about me were completely fine on waiting for 4 extra hours because they had a concept of what I was going through. But hay you were never there before so I don't even know why I should have expected you to be there then. And don't bitch out Tiffany because she was just being a friend who cares. Oh and you won't be able to go to anymore pratices or tryouts if I have them due to them hateing you very very much and I don't want you to come anyways. So you made it onto a lot of people's shitlist, congrats!
So to end this, thanks for nothing and fuck you.
Besides that, chilled at Tiffany's until this morning.
Coming home alone was hard, my Mom is still in pain and it's hard to look into my Dad's eyes. Mother told me to call Mouse and tell her what happened.
So I did and she showed up later on with her sister.
After staying here we went to her house where she braided my hair within an hour and a half, which is insane.
Mouse, Tiffany and Jesse are attending my Aunt's wake and burial(sp?) this Wensday and Thursday.
Thank you guys for being here for me and my family.
As for the Hollow Image tryout, I don't know anything new yet.
Still need to talk to Josh.
Now all I can do is hope..
Love you tons Mouse
*hugs and kisses*
Thanks Tiff for being here when you could and helping me out with the tryout.
*big hugs*