*Pauses.*
This morning was rather "boring" to say the least. I think it also qualifies for a level of "bad" as well. What a way to start off the day.
I suppose Sarah and I were going to go to lunch otday after her classes, so I woke up nice and early. I hadn't eaten since yesterday so there was quite a rumbly in my tumbly. After a quick phone call it turns out that she had a massive migraine and was still sitting in her bed all tucked in, in the dark. It's quite personal so I will nto say anything here about it, but her migraine was pretty damn awful. *Looks down.* So, no go on lunch. While dissappointed, I care more for her well-being then seeing me for lunch.
I took off and went to Border's to see if a few books were in that I had wanted. (They weren't.) that's when it hit me and I got "depressed". The whole, "Does she hate me?", "Am I being a nuisance to her?", "She seems avoidant." crap kicked in. So, I was hoping for her voice-mail, but got her instead. I just wanted to express my concern that I had felt intrudent of her personal life and that I think that I should back out of it. The only other slight thing that was on my mind was that she had mentioned she had called her ex to have him put in a good word for her at 97.1 for a assistant position that was available. Of course I didn't say anything, but I was jealous... I suppose in my own little way I don't like that she gets along so well with her exs. I mean, there was once feelings there before, so why would they quite possibly not happen again? Does anyone get my drift beside me?
I mean, I don't want to scare the poor girl away, but I'm concerned. If anything, should I be caring about this the way that I do? It's called feelings and me being "protective", but I'd like to know everyones thoughts.
All else is assumingly well with her and I however. Hey... I'm happy, I just haven't "talked" to her deeply in awhile to know what her stance/thoughts are. Maybe tonight?
-Jason
I suppose Sarah and I were going to go to lunch otday after her classes, so I woke up nice and early. I hadn't eaten since yesterday so there was quite a rumbly in my tumbly. After a quick phone call it turns out that she had a massive migraine and was still sitting in her bed all tucked in, in the dark. It's quite personal so I will nto say anything here about it, but her migraine was pretty damn awful. *Looks down.* So, no go on lunch. While dissappointed, I care more for her well-being then seeing me for lunch.
I took off and went to Border's to see if a few books were in that I had wanted. (They weren't.) that's when it hit me and I got "depressed". The whole, "Does she hate me?", "Am I being a nuisance to her?", "She seems avoidant." crap kicked in. So, I was hoping for her voice-mail, but got her instead. I just wanted to express my concern that I had felt intrudent of her personal life and that I think that I should back out of it. The only other slight thing that was on my mind was that she had mentioned she had called her ex to have him put in a good word for her at 97.1 for a assistant position that was available. Of course I didn't say anything, but I was jealous... I suppose in my own little way I don't like that she gets along so well with her exs. I mean, there was once feelings there before, so why would they quite possibly not happen again? Does anyone get my drift beside me?
I mean, I don't want to scare the poor girl away, but I'm concerned. If anything, should I be caring about this the way that I do? It's called feelings and me being "protective", but I'd like to know everyones thoughts.
All else is assumingly well with her and I however. Hey... I'm happy, I just haven't "talked" to her deeply in awhile to know what her stance/thoughts are. Maybe tonight?
-Jason