Bombshell
I'm at a loss for words at the moment.
I just had a chat with dad over a cup of coffee and he swayed the conversation into a bit of a 'man talk' thing. I like that I can have those with my dad, for a long time I haven't been able to do that, for whatever reason of awkwardness.
The chat consisted of him starting a sentence "My first wife..."
What. The. Fuck.
I'm sorry i didn't hear anything you said past "My first wife".
I proceeded to ask him if he was bullshitting me. He wasn't. Dad was apparently married when he was 23. 18 months later his wife died.
I'm slightly upset for a few reasons, the first being that I didn't know such an important detail about my dad, and secondly to lose your wife at such a young age is just an unbelievable pain. I feel so sorry for him the grief which he must have gone through.
This is something if I had of known earlier I would have loved to have talked to my grandparents about. But they've passed on too and I'm feeling a little lost. Do my other siblings know? If they did how come it hasn't come to my attention? What does my mum think of it all?
jesus.
I just had a chat with dad over a cup of coffee and he swayed the conversation into a bit of a 'man talk' thing. I like that I can have those with my dad, for a long time I haven't been able to do that, for whatever reason of awkwardness.
The chat consisted of him starting a sentence "My first wife..."
What. The. Fuck.
I'm sorry i didn't hear anything you said past "My first wife".
I proceeded to ask him if he was bullshitting me. He wasn't. Dad was apparently married when he was 23. 18 months later his wife died.
I'm slightly upset for a few reasons, the first being that I didn't know such an important detail about my dad, and secondly to lose your wife at such a young age is just an unbelievable pain. I feel so sorry for him the grief which he must have gone through.
This is something if I had of known earlier I would have loved to have talked to my grandparents about. But they've passed on too and I'm feeling a little lost. Do my other siblings know? If they did how come it hasn't come to my attention? What does my mum think of it all?
jesus.