discouraged....by life
ive got no direction in life, nd no drive to become nething...i mean of course id like to be sumthing great but all the pressures of society r telling me that i have to make money to be successful and thats what i feel. The only thing that i want now is to be free, but in order to be free i have to be successful...right? thats how ive always seen it, thats what ive always been told. Money controls everything in society today, nd without it there will always be a shadow looming over you, you will always be under someone else's thumb. If i do not become successful I feel like someone will always control my life...or the quality of my life....
what kind of pathetic existence is that?....
I have to jump thru n endless amount of hoops all in the hopes that at the end of that endless line of hoops there is some kind of salvation, something or someone that will tell me that everything i have done up to that point was worth it. All the people you had to obey, the rules u had to follow. I dont feel like any of this will ever be worth it. Life seems so pointless nd yet................i still want so badly to find a purpose...
what kind of pathetic existence is that?....
I have to jump thru n endless amount of hoops all in the hopes that at the end of that endless line of hoops there is some kind of salvation, something or someone that will tell me that everything i have done up to that point was worth it. All the people you had to obey, the rules u had to follow. I dont feel like any of this will ever be worth it. Life seems so pointless nd yet................i still want so badly to find a purpose...