first love; how melo

Sep 22, 2010 02:50

Love, for me, has always been more of a knowledge than a feeling. Maybe it's the depression, or maybe it's just the way I am. Maybe it means I'm not loving 'right,' that I haven't ever really loved anything or anyone, but I think that's bullshit.

It does make answering this question difficult, as there's no one person who stands out to me as someone I love(d).

There's no one with a deep feeling attached to them; my childhood and teen years (and right up to the present) are all the same oatmeal-coloured paste, if one's emotional state can be described like that (I was going to write 'described thusly' but then I realized that, you know, that was teensely over-the-top prickish).

BUT! I do remember a couple of times, most specifically at my grandfather's, where my dad and I went to sit out on their giant porch, watching a storm. I was little, younger than nine, and the rain and the lightening, and being with my dad when he wasn't yelling or being a jackass... I loved it.

I know I did.


Day 01 - Introduction
Day 02 - Your first love, in great detail
Day 03 - Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 - What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 - Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 - Your day, in great detail
Day 07 - Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 - A moment, in great detail
Day 09 - Your beliefs, in great detail
Day 10 - What you wore today, in great detail
Day 11 - Your siblings, in great detail
Day 12 - What’s in your bag, in great detail
Day 13 - This week, in great detail
Day 14 - What you wore today, in great detail
Day 15 - Your dreams, in great detail
Day 16 - Your first kiss, in great detail
Day 17 - Your favorite memory, in great detail
Day 18 - Your favorite birthday, in great detail
Day 19 - Something you regret, in great detail
Day 20 - This month, in great detail
Day 21 - Another moment, in great detail
Day 22 - Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 - Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 - Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 - A first, in great detail
Day 26 - Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 - Your favorite place, in great detail
Day 28 - Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 - Your aspirations, in great detail
Day 30 - One last moment, in great detail

meee, meme yay

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