this is why i cleared out my journal
hi, it's 4:20 am (according to the microwave, and 4:20 am> 4:28 am) and i can't sleep.
not that i don't want to, because i love sleeping. some people are like, "why on earth do you sleep so much? aren't you wasting your life?" or something to that effect. no. i am not. some people like, i dunno, hiking or reading or playing the violin or whatever. i like sleeping. it's warm, snuggly, and you don't have to deal with anything or anyone annoying. there are few better feelings in the world than the one where you're almost unconscious--that point where you're not exactly asleep but you're not alert enough to make yourself wake up again-- and totally relaxed amid masses of silk covers and feather pillows and blankets. sleeping is one thing i'm really good at, usually. i can sleep 16/24 hours for a few days in a row. especially in the winter, or when faced with too much econ homework. i'm sure this is some kind of unhealthy, immature, and unproductive "run and hide" response on my part--if i'm not awake it doesn't exist, it can't get me and i don't have to concern myself with it.
whatever.
twilight series, New Moon pgs. 82-85.
this is always what i'm trying to write and can never find words for. so i'm quoting blank pages.
you'd sleep a lot too.
not that i don't want to, because i love sleeping. some people are like, "why on earth do you sleep so much? aren't you wasting your life?" or something to that effect. no. i am not. some people like, i dunno, hiking or reading or playing the violin or whatever. i like sleeping. it's warm, snuggly, and you don't have to deal with anything or anyone annoying. there are few better feelings in the world than the one where you're almost unconscious--that point where you're not exactly asleep but you're not alert enough to make yourself wake up again-- and totally relaxed amid masses of silk covers and feather pillows and blankets. sleeping is one thing i'm really good at, usually. i can sleep 16/24 hours for a few days in a row. especially in the winter, or when faced with too much econ homework. i'm sure this is some kind of unhealthy, immature, and unproductive "run and hide" response on my part--if i'm not awake it doesn't exist, it can't get me and i don't have to concern myself with it.
whatever.
twilight series, New Moon pgs. 82-85.
this is always what i'm trying to write and can never find words for. so i'm quoting blank pages.
you'd sleep a lot too.