I don't care.
Love me. Hate me. Judge me.
I don't care anymore.
I know I'm doing what is best for myself. I know I made the right decision. I can't keep living this lie. I can't keep faking happiness.
But apparently, it's more virtuous to lie and pretend that everything is perfect, than it is to tell the truth. People hate me for what I did. People hate me for not leading him on. People hate me for telling him the truth. It stings, but I can't take it back. The people who know me the best, and love me the most will stay by my side. Everyone else can fuck off. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life... And this was the hardest decision I've ever had to make. But I can't live the rest of my life knowing that this was not meant to be. It's not right.
If it weren't for school and this God-forsaken lease... I'd be packing up and moving back to Fort Myers right now. Every friend I have here has basically turned their back on me. But I guess that just shows who my true friends are. I've got a lot of soul-searching left to do... I don't even know where to begin from here. This is going to be a long and complicated process. But a necessary one.
30 days before I test my limits.
I need this trip more than anything. I am so thankful that he came into my life and opened my eyes. I don't have to settle for imperfection. I don't know what the future holds for us, but I will never thank him enough for giving me the confidence I needed to get out of a bad situation. And I'll never thank him enough for being there to help me pick up the pieces.
--Malaya
I don't care anymore.
I know I'm doing what is best for myself. I know I made the right decision. I can't keep living this lie. I can't keep faking happiness.
But apparently, it's more virtuous to lie and pretend that everything is perfect, than it is to tell the truth. People hate me for what I did. People hate me for not leading him on. People hate me for telling him the truth. It stings, but I can't take it back. The people who know me the best, and love me the most will stay by my side. Everyone else can fuck off. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life... And this was the hardest decision I've ever had to make. But I can't live the rest of my life knowing that this was not meant to be. It's not right.
If it weren't for school and this God-forsaken lease... I'd be packing up and moving back to Fort Myers right now. Every friend I have here has basically turned their back on me. But I guess that just shows who my true friends are. I've got a lot of soul-searching left to do... I don't even know where to begin from here. This is going to be a long and complicated process. But a necessary one.
30 days before I test my limits.
I need this trip more than anything. I am so thankful that he came into my life and opened my eyes. I don't have to settle for imperfection. I don't know what the future holds for us, but I will never thank him enough for giving me the confidence I needed to get out of a bad situation. And I'll never thank him enough for being there to help me pick up the pieces.
--Malaya