Damn You, Criminal Minds

[malakijr]

So I was watching the show "Criminal Minds" today, because I really enjoy stabbing myself in the eye with a pen repeatedly (it's funtimes, yo) and the episode I just watched was a really good episode, but I think I'm going to be having nightmares tonight. Probably bad ones

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[malakijr]

Bella is being Moody McHissalot lately, so she wasn't much help. I felt better after typing this entry, though. I was worried I gave too much about the episode away in my entry, but I just read it this morning and I definitely didn't give too much away, which makes me feel better since I only barely remember writing this. I was a mess last night. but while I DID dream about Criminal Minds and "The hunger Games" books last night, they weren't bad dreams (I come back to "The Hunger Games" a lot because there's so much in them about surviving terrible things happening and being wounded and broken and having to move on anyway, and it's not about "getting over it" by pretending the terrible things didn't happen but finding a way to see good things in the world in spite of all the bad...I don't know if you've read the books, but I highly recommend them).

anyway...thanks for replying and thanks for listening (and for not saying "stop watching things that trigger you, idiot" as your solution, because while some things trigger me like crazy, sometimes those things are healing, too, like pouring peroxide on a wound to cleanse it...it burns, but it also helps me heal, I guess). I appreciate it.

[nabba]

I understand, trust me. I put off watching an SVU ep or something like that. I want to watch Irreversible but I know it's graphic when it comes to the rape scene, so I've been putting it off for a very long time. Now being on yet another medication.... I don't know if maybe now I can watch stuff without having to have my first thought be "is this going to trigger me?"

You know I'm always here for you :)

<3