Valentine's Day Schmaslentine's Day
So I was mildly amused watching bleary-eyed guys wander into Meijer at 4 Am trying to pick out stuffed animals and flowers and cards and jewlrey and candy. It was sweet.
Then things started to get weird.
One of the girls at work got Valentine's Day presents and cards from 2 guys at work. She told me she was embarrassed about this and she needs to learn how to stop "giving off that flirty vibe" or "making the guys like her" (she's from a sheltered Christian school and home). I feel bad that she's embarrassed that she's cute and pretty and guys like her, and she was raised to think that's a bad thing. I feel kind of bad for her...she's going to give the presents the guys gave her to her mom so her parents don't find out that guys like her at work, and that makes me feel bad for her too. What kind of parents of a 24 year old girl would be mad that she got presents from guys?
Want me to be honest, though? I'm also more than a little jealous that she got presents and cards from two different guys today.
Look, I don't buy into the holiday. the only time I was actually dating on Valentine's day, the day sucked and even getting a present didn't help. I'm not usually sentimental about this stupid day. I was enjoying watching the guys wander around the store and shop for gifts, but then one of the cashiers asked me "Do you have a boyfriend?" And it hit me that even if I was in a relationship, it's something that would probably really bother people if they knew. I mean, if I was like, "No, but I have a girlfriend and I'm buying her this card and these flowers" or something, people would get THAT LOOK on their faces. I'd still be happy and everything, but I'm not going to save face or try to lie, it would hurt a little. And I still wish I had someone to cuddle with and watch movies, or do laundry with, or hell, even fight with, you know? I miss those things. Don't lecture me, I'm happy and content and I love my cat and I'm glad I have my life and blah blah blah, but sometimes I get lonely and miss having someone to come home to who doesn't poop on the floor or throw up on my tablecloth, you know? Just sometimes. I usually don't get sentimental, but this day has been weird and different for some reason.
Some good came of it, though. I thought about my mom a lot today. She always wanted to get flowers when I was a kid. One day some flowers were delivered to the apartments and the driver came to our apartment by mistake and she looked so happy and then so crushed when he realized his mistake. I've never forgotten that look on her face. I decided that if I was lonely, she was probably lonely too, so I buckled and ordered her some hideously expensive flowers with some of my leftover tax return money. I really hope it makes her smile when the delivery guy comes and it's NOT a mistake. I hope these flowers make her happy today.