I need you so much closer
ok well um yeah, update one everything so far is: I was dating eirc and it was probabaly the best relationship i've ever had b/c he treated me soo much better than any other guy imaginable. But last week, I don't know, I would going through alot and I took some of it out on him and he did on me too and we got in fights, and this saturday it ended with a fight again, and it really being over chrisianity and how it irritated him so much. I never wanted to change him or convert him or w/e I just wnted to talk about it, that is me. And that is him not wanting to b/c it's akward for him apperently.
It hurts so much more than I exspected, not b/c I love him a whole lot, but b/c I am looseing my best friend, things will never be the same, it tears me apart. I went to him about everything and I can no longer do that. I blame myself for what has happened b/c I should have just stoped talking about it.
Also, he acts like he is completely over me in one day, and as though he doesn't care at all, like he's not hurt at all, and it's taking everything I have not to cry in class or at all. I want more than anything for things just to be the way they were before, as friends. Or that we could have worked things out. It is my fault for what has happened. and b/c of it he's able to be completely over me and act lie nothing happened....i wish i could have a second chance to make things right but that is to much to ask.
It hurts so much more than I exspected, not b/c I love him a whole lot, but b/c I am looseing my best friend, things will never be the same, it tears me apart. I went to him about everything and I can no longer do that. I blame myself for what has happened b/c I should have just stoped talking about it.
Also, he acts like he is completely over me in one day, and as though he doesn't care at all, like he's not hurt at all, and it's taking everything I have not to cry in class or at all. I want more than anything for things just to be the way they were before, as friends. Or that we could have worked things out. It is my fault for what has happened. and b/c of it he's able to be completely over me and act lie nothing happened....i wish i could have a second chance to make things right but that is to much to ask.