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I'm having difficulty writing and I'm uncertain as to why. I have a lot to say and much of it is rather personal (but saying that in any sort of blog seems to be rather ridiculous because blogs are simply billboards for people to create a sideshow for all the anonymous world to see (or better yet, read.)
For 10 weeks I was a father (unknowingly) and then was told that both children were miscarried. I've looked at it objectively and have tried to tell myself different things in order to console myself, but nothing helps. I don't want to have children anymore, I've already had twins and they're dead.
Why am I incapable of letting go of past emotions? More so, why is it that people who don't want me still want me to feel the same way without it being returned? How have I made myself into this person to fall back upon? I don't bother extending myself to others anymore yet there's a lot of emotions struggling underneath the surface; yet, I've done such a good job at suppressing them, they've become convoluted and twisted up inside of me...and then i find myself writing something that sounds better suited to a impotent love song. Some
I really don't have much else to say - I'm attempting to purchase a 4 track to experiment with and I've really gotten into folk music recently.
If anyone reading my blog would like to start a cd exchange, let me know
For 10 weeks I was a father (unknowingly) and then was told that both children were miscarried. I've looked at it objectively and have tried to tell myself different things in order to console myself, but nothing helps. I don't want to have children anymore, I've already had twins and they're dead.
Why am I incapable of letting go of past emotions? More so, why is it that people who don't want me still want me to feel the same way without it being returned? How have I made myself into this person to fall back upon? I don't bother extending myself to others anymore yet there's a lot of emotions struggling underneath the surface; yet, I've done such a good job at suppressing them, they've become convoluted and twisted up inside of me...and then i find myself writing something that sounds better suited to a impotent love song. Some
I really don't have much else to say - I'm attempting to purchase a 4 track to experiment with and I've really gotten into folk music recently.
If anyone reading my blog would like to start a cd exchange, let me know