livejournal.. whats that?! haha
ok so according to livejournal i havent updated this in 20 weeks. horrible.
anyway i just wanna say that im a huge organizational freak.
and i think i need help for it
like how much can something really be organized
i went to ask a councelor at bcc what late start classes were available
and it went into a convo about my OCD and how i work twice as hard as "normal" people at trying to get where i wanna go and focus but im still at "just getting by" with all my effort while the others who are trying hard also are at a higher level because i have my OCD obstacle that hinders me and she suggested i go to the bcc therapist.. lol.. so now maybe i wont lysol and alcohol soak my myself after i get out of that nasty nursing home.. haha but not just that but other things i do. Like i just had a convo with chelsea and after the convo i re reread it and im so obsessive about getting everything right and getting everything i wanna say said its really pathetic and it makes it sickening for me to read it.. so "the time has come....
the walrus said.. to talk of many things.. of shoes and ships, and sealing wax- of cabbages and kings- and why the sea is boiling hot- and whether pigs have wings."
to make an appointment with him....
joy.
anyway i just wanna say that im a huge organizational freak.
and i think i need help for it
like how much can something really be organized
i went to ask a councelor at bcc what late start classes were available
and it went into a convo about my OCD and how i work twice as hard as "normal" people at trying to get where i wanna go and focus but im still at "just getting by" with all my effort while the others who are trying hard also are at a higher level because i have my OCD obstacle that hinders me and she suggested i go to the bcc therapist.. lol.. so now maybe i wont lysol and alcohol soak my myself after i get out of that nasty nursing home.. haha but not just that but other things i do. Like i just had a convo with chelsea and after the convo i re reread it and im so obsessive about getting everything right and getting everything i wanna say said its really pathetic and it makes it sickening for me to read it.. so "the time has come....
the walrus said.. to talk of many things.. of shoes and ships, and sealing wax- of cabbages and kings- and why the sea is boiling hot- and whether pigs have wings."
to make an appointment with him....
joy.