Unsent Letter (1)
I've been thinking a lot about what was said.
And, it struck me that maybe I misunderstood why you were so upset. I assumed you were upset because you felt I couldn't promise to be with you forever, or because you felt you couldn't trust me to be faithful. If either of these are the case... then I don't know what else to say. I'm one of the most faithful and dedicated people you'll ever meet.
Then, I thought maybe you were upset by me saying that I was dedicated to you, that I didn't want anyone else.
It sounded strange to me at first, but some of the things you said made me think that was the case.
The idea that all you wanted was for me to find someone else was... it made me realize that it was more important to have you as a friend, as someone I could talk to, hang out with, and have fun with, than it was to be a couple with you. Getting to hang out and talk with you has made these the best weeks in years.
I can't change how I feel about you, but I'd rather never lay hands on you again then never see you again.
I also want you to know that you can always talk to me about anything. If nothing said in this message made you want to talk to me again, then please remember that I'll always be an open ear for you to talk to, no matter what happens. You were, for these two months, my best friend, and I'd like you to know that I will never forget that. You can always come to me for anything.
And I still want to buy you that candy.
Your Friend Always,
Alex
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I might send this eventually. But I can't bring myself to do it now.
And, it struck me that maybe I misunderstood why you were so upset. I assumed you were upset because you felt I couldn't promise to be with you forever, or because you felt you couldn't trust me to be faithful. If either of these are the case... then I don't know what else to say. I'm one of the most faithful and dedicated people you'll ever meet.
Then, I thought maybe you were upset by me saying that I was dedicated to you, that I didn't want anyone else.
It sounded strange to me at first, but some of the things you said made me think that was the case.
The idea that all you wanted was for me to find someone else was... it made me realize that it was more important to have you as a friend, as someone I could talk to, hang out with, and have fun with, than it was to be a couple with you. Getting to hang out and talk with you has made these the best weeks in years.
I can't change how I feel about you, but I'd rather never lay hands on you again then never see you again.
I also want you to know that you can always talk to me about anything. If nothing said in this message made you want to talk to me again, then please remember that I'll always be an open ear for you to talk to, no matter what happens. You were, for these two months, my best friend, and I'd like you to know that I will never forget that. You can always come to me for anything.
And I still want to buy you that candy.
Your Friend Always,
Alex
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I might send this eventually. But I can't bring myself to do it now.