your words are cancer in my mouth

Jun 20, 2005 22:07


at least i got a phone call this time...that was polite. im way too forgiving Amanda says,about everything, not any one specific incident or person(to avoid confusion)

i guess she's right- i fail myself & i blame myself for other people hurting me, its a cycle & i cant fucking break it

after work Amanda, Alexx and I went to flagler skate park,this dude Chuck was the awesomest guy ever

we practiced dropping in and fakies & nollies not ollies...fucking hard as shit zahaha but i loved it

i want to rant and vent some more but not on an angry tone, or a self-pitying one.

i just want this to go away

like, i want him to know i'm there. that i've always been there. i know him so well & i hope he hasn't replaced all the good memories with the 2 weeks of hell i gave him =(

i loved/love? him and i will always be there, just like all my other exes but this one is different,this will always be the one that got away

i'm embarrassed to write this knowing someone out there is reading my most private thoughts, but i have to

bc swallowing these feelings is making me grow weary, im there, thats all i can say. thats all he wants of me most likely if even that.

im choking back tears and screams as i write this

fuck it

i'll scream this till your ears bleed

"you'll always have a friend in me"
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