Welcome me back...
I haven't updated my LJ in ages. I wonder if LJ will ever kick out anyone due to lack of participation. Anyway, for those who cares, I did not fall off the face of the earth. I was just merely hanging by the edge, praying to fall off.
The reasons why I haven't been online for a while is because I had very little chance to access the internet. The only time I ever get to go online are very limited and I'm usually on for just a few measly minutes. The other reason is I've been having my exams.
Oh how I despise exams. This is one of the reasons why I cannot wait I'm finished with highschool and off to college. Of course I'd still get exams then, except this time, since it's my choice of subjects, it would be much easier for me since I would like my subjects.
Another reason why I haven't been updating is the lack of things happening in my life that I'm willing to share or talk about. In other words, I was just too lazy.
Now, however I'm quite in the mood to post something. Lot's of stuff has been happening and I can barely keep up.
Two guys. I never thought I was this popular. I'm pretty sure both of them don't check my journal. Well both of them used to but I think they stopped because I haven't posted at all so I think it's safe.
Anyway, my best guy friend who I thought only saw me as a sister, has this thing for me. Yesterday, he made said he liked me. I was shocked and I had no clue what to say. I mean c'mon this is pretty big. He was supposed to be my just my bestfriend. I never thought he had a thing for me. Which is hard to believe since, the only people who usually have a thing for me, they don't know me that well. I mean nobody deserves to go out with me. Nobody deserves to be treated with a date from me. And I'm not saying that in a "you're too good for me" way. But the opposite way.
Anyway, he has this thing for me.
I don't know why I let him hold my hand in that way. I do not know what happened. Maybe I'm just flattered. But the thing is the other guy, I really feel something for him. I really do. I just wish he was here to hold my hand, when I need him to. Except he and I are miles apart
I'm confused. I don't want to be with my bestfriend in that way and I want to be with the other guy. So why did I let my bestfriend do what he did? He was the one who started it but I wasn't exactly fighting it either. At least until we just had to stop, I pulled away. (I refuse to expand on what he did but it was something just friends do to each other) Does this mean I have this thing for my bestfriend as well?
Or am I just a bitch? Oh my God, I am aren't I?
Somebody kill me. Now my bestfriend thinks I like him, and I'm not sure if I do or not... But I don't want to this to the other guy because I do love this other guy.
A lot.
I'm gonna go fall of that cliff now...
The reasons why I haven't been online for a while is because I had very little chance to access the internet. The only time I ever get to go online are very limited and I'm usually on for just a few measly minutes. The other reason is I've been having my exams.
Oh how I despise exams. This is one of the reasons why I cannot wait I'm finished with highschool and off to college. Of course I'd still get exams then, except this time, since it's my choice of subjects, it would be much easier for me since I would like my subjects.
Another reason why I haven't been updating is the lack of things happening in my life that I'm willing to share or talk about. In other words, I was just too lazy.
Now, however I'm quite in the mood to post something. Lot's of stuff has been happening and I can barely keep up.
Two guys. I never thought I was this popular. I'm pretty sure both of them don't check my journal. Well both of them used to but I think they stopped because I haven't posted at all so I think it's safe.
Anyway, my best guy friend who I thought only saw me as a sister, has this thing for me. Yesterday, he made said he liked me. I was shocked and I had no clue what to say. I mean c'mon this is pretty big. He was supposed to be my just my bestfriend. I never thought he had a thing for me. Which is hard to believe since, the only people who usually have a thing for me, they don't know me that well. I mean nobody deserves to go out with me. Nobody deserves to be treated with a date from me. And I'm not saying that in a "you're too good for me" way. But the opposite way.
Anyway, he has this thing for me.
I don't know why I let him hold my hand in that way. I do not know what happened. Maybe I'm just flattered. But the thing is the other guy, I really feel something for him. I really do. I just wish he was here to hold my hand, when I need him to. Except he and I are miles apart
I'm confused. I don't want to be with my bestfriend in that way and I want to be with the other guy. So why did I let my bestfriend do what he did? He was the one who started it but I wasn't exactly fighting it either. At least until we just had to stop, I pulled away. (I refuse to expand on what he did but it was something just friends do to each other) Does this mean I have this thing for my bestfriend as well?
Or am I just a bitch? Oh my God, I am aren't I?
Somebody kill me. Now my bestfriend thinks I like him, and I'm not sure if I do or not... But I don't want to this to the other guy because I do love this other guy.
A lot.
I'm gonna go fall of that cliff now...