Love is a blind man's battlefield [Chapter 2]
Title: Love is a blind man's battlefield [Chapter 2]
Author: makipat
Pairing: Chiitaro, Yamajima
Genre: Angst
Summary: Love is a blindman's battlefield-- and it certainly is. For a blind man to love and fight in a blinded love, how will things turn out??
Note: this is the sequel of my other fic my boyfriend's look-a-like.
The small figure lying on the bed groaned once rays on light came across his porcelain face and the cloth that was supposed to make him warmer was gone in just a second. He felt mass of fat hoped on his bed and hastily came over his side. Needless to say, he knew who the people who did that were.
“Chinen! Wake up!” he heard his best friend’s boyfriend’s voice yelling right in front of his ear.
“Ryo-chan, he might lose his hearing you know” the little boy could feel the weight on his bed lighten up as his best friend pulled his one heck of a pig lover away from him and his bed.
“That’s why he’s like this! You’re spoiling him too much!!”
The so called pig named Yamada Ryosuke kept scolding his boyfriend for a good 10 minutes. In the middle of the scolding, the little squirrel sat up on his bed and scratched his head while glaring at the two people who woke him up from his slumber.
After sensing that the scolding wasn’t going to end any sooner, he stood up and went straight to his bedroom with the two figures oblivious to his movements.
“They’re so loud.” He started to brush his teeth, listening to the two people in his room.
Every morning, these people would always come to his house, wake him up, make sure he eats and just stay with him. Every since the day he tried to take away his life, his best friend and best friend’s boyfriend never let him out of their sight. He could never be grateful enough to the things these people have done for him.
These two were the ones who kept him living, they were the ones who would tell him everything is alright and nothing will go wrong, these were the people who would always call to remind him to eat his meals properly and on time, these were the people who would make him smile, laugh and be happy… these were the people who would shower his with love that he has been waiting to feel for almost a year.
“Chii!!!!”
His thoughts were stopped, the small smile that had came up from his face a while ago was replaced with a frowns and was nowhere to be found.
That dream… he had been having the very same dreams for almost a week now. It was not a shock to him that in every dream he has, his boyfriend will be there… but this past few days, he had been dreaming of the very same thing, same person, same flow of events, same places. Almost everything was the same, almost, except for his boyfriend’s expression whenever he sees him.
In the first few dreams, the hamster boy would look at him coldly like he was nobody, then on the proceeding dreams, his expression would soften little by little… Until last night, his eyes were burning as if desperate to rescue the little squirrel. It was like Ryutaro was recognizing him little by little…
“What do you want to tell me, Ryuu-chan…?” He whispered silently but still enough to be heard by his two friends.
“Eh? Chii? What are you saying?” It was the tall one who asked, sensing that his boyfriend didn’t want to open up the topic.
“Oh… nothing! C’mon let’s eat already!!” the little boy showed the hugest grin he could fake and pushed his two friends to the dining room.
The three of them ate the breakfast Yamada made, and as always the main dish was strawberries. The three of them were laughing while watching the t.v and eating, it was until sudden news flashed to the screen.
“A body was found at Kanazawa-shi in Ishikawa Prefecture earlier this morning. Reports say that the said body was of the dead passengers of the 03:30 Korea flight that crashed at Japan Sea about a year ago. The said body was of a boy, around 17-20 of age and has a height of 170 cm. The identity of the body is yet to be discovered, any relatives that are still looking for their loved ones that fit the boy’s characteristics should call XXX-XXXX-XXXX.”
A deafening silence was heard. Yuto looked at his boyfriend and Yamada did the same. After a good 10 seconds of looking at each other, they saw the little squirrel stand up while holding the dishes. Their eyes followed his movements, they saw him clenching his fists tightly after placing the plates on the sink.
“Ahh… Chii! Want some desserts?? I have pudding in the fridge.” It was Yamada who came up with the lame idea, he hurriedly went to the fridge to get some but was stopped when Chinen opened his mouth to speak.
“No, I don’t like to eat anymore” cold… His tone was indeed as cold as ice.
“Let’s go for a morning walk then! I just heard of this new bakery shop near your neighborhood’s park.” Of all the excuses the chubby cheeked boy could think of… everything revolved around food. It even made the squirrel think that Yamada thought that Yuto was some sort of food and dated him. But even that joke couldn’t make Chinen forget about this pain he is carrying.
“I want to be alone for a while…” He whispered enough to be heard by the two.
“But Chii-” Yamada tried again but he got another thing coming.
“I said I want to be alone!! Can’t you understand that!!!???” his eyes roared with irritation, anger, hurt and sadness.
“I-I’m sorry” the chubby cheeks was already on the verge of tears.
He saw this… Chinen saw how the tears slowly flow down from Yamada’s eyes. How could he do this? How could he make one of the persons who took care of him for this whole while cry? He watched how Yuto embrace his boyfriend tightly, letting the older cry on his shoulder before staring at Chinen while shaking his head.
Disappointment was painted on Yuto’s face. He knew that he wasn’t the only one hurting… That person was also important to Yamada as to all of them, he knew that Yamada treated that person as his treasured friend and son. He knew that Yamada was only cheering him up because if he won’t… he might be the first one to break down.
Seeing Yuto shaking his head and Yamada crying on his chest, Chinen couldn’t take it anymore. He up to his room and locked himself in. The squirrel curled at the farthest corner of his bed and brought his knees to his chest while sobbing silently.
“How could I make the most important people to me, cry?” He sobbed, flashing images came to his mind. “I made Yama-chan cry, I made Yuto upset… I made Kei-san angry… I made everyone disappointed” He cried even harder once his face came to his mind. “I-I made you leave me…”
Only the sound of his whimpers was hear… it felt like the world stopped for a minute to heard him redeem his sins.
“Ryuu-chan… I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I-I’m s… sorry” his mouth kept repeating those words and it never wanted to stop but a sudden whisper came to his ears
“Don’t cry Chii…”
“Baka… It’s because of you that I’m crying” he smiled and slowly wiped away his tears. “You left me Ryuu… and now you want me to believe that your body is the one floating in Kanazawa?”
This has became his daily routine, call him crazy… he doesn’t care. As long as he can hear his voice then whatever is fine. Talking to himself never felt this relaxing to him. He kept talking alone when he heard a shout… obviously Yuto’s voice.
“What happened?”
He hurriedly ran down the stairs and to the kitchen. There he saw Yuto hand on his head and Yamada staring blankly at the table.
“What happened?” He asked in a soft voice.
“Chii…” he could sense the sadness in Yamada’s voice.
“What?” every second that passed he felt even more tensed.
“I’m sorry…” he heard Yuto, Chinen didn’t say anything and motioned Yuto to continue because it looks like Yamada couldn’t speak anymore.
“Ryuu’s mom… she said that she wants to take Ryuu’s body home…” he whispered silently
“Chii… the body floating in Kanazawa, she says its Ryuu’s” Yamada was the one to say it this time.
“W-what!!??” he was stunned, he never expected her to do that.
“She doesn’t want to look anymore… she said that it’s hopeless.” Yuto hugged the crying Yamada while telling everything to Chinen.
“No! That is not Ryutaro!! I know my boyfriend! He won’t leave me! Never!!”
After hearing the news Chinen dashed out of the house with tears running down his eyes and headed to Ryutaro’s old house. How could she let that happen!? Is she really giving up!!?
"No! That body is not my RYUTARO!!"
A/N: update...
so sad :(
a girl who you thought was your friend is telling negative things about you...
i don't want friends like that... i don't know what to do anymore.
.... comments are love....
i need something to cheer me up. :(