procrastination is not my friend.
i have a feeling that since i`m at my dad's this wk i`m going to be updating a lot. all i`m doing is working on my resume, sending it out, working on a few applications & a standard recommendation letter that i can give to a few of my professors so i`ll be spending a lot of time on the computer, probably procrastinating. allen & me promised each other that we`re really going to get our stuff in gear these next 2 semesters, we`re both aiming for 4.0's. whoever gets the highest gpa gets whatever they want for a month. is that incentive or what?
i feel kinda sucky about being up here. i mean, when i was younger me&my dad were really close, i always felt more like a daddy's girl, you know? he`s the more lenient parent & the one that i can talk to easier & i relate to more, but now...idk, i was kinda scared that my dad would say no when i asked if i could stay up here this week. i thought he`d be excited because i`m not up here much anymore & when i am it`s like once a month, i havent been up here for a week in a row since before i was 18, i think. well anyways all he said to me yesterday was, "tomorrow would probably be a good day for vacuuming". what? what about, "i`m really glad you`ve decided to come & spend this time with us", anything? i guess he probably feels like i`m just up here to escape my mom (not entirely false). oh well, you can`t have it all rite? i was thinking the other day you know how they always say that girls end up marrying their fathers? that shit is so true & it`s one of the reasons why i kinda believe in astrology now. my mom is married to a man a lot like my grandfather (even though i dont like my stepdad much & i love my grandfather) & theyre both scorpios. allen & my dad are both cancers & you would not believe how alike they are. i don`t mind though, i think it`s kind of sweet.