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Today has been a day of mixed blessings.
Saturday, Kirby went into seizures unexplainedly! It was so awful!! Yesterday, she didn't even know what was going on. We found her across the road at a neighbor's house. we thought she went to lay down and die somewhere alone. Unforutnately, that wasn't the case. I say that cuz we didn't want her to suffer. That dog is part of our family and has been so since she was two!! The sweetest lil mutt ever and those who met her know how sweet she was! But today was too much. Dad wanted to wait till tommorrow to put her down because he was at work but to see her going into convulsions like that repeatedly is horrible. Mom came home from work and we took her in to be euthanized. The hardest thing we ever did. We cried all the way there, I was afraid mom wasn't going to be able to drive. The vet came to our car to give her the shot; asked if we'd liek to watch but Kasi and I couldn't bare it. It still horrifies me to know all that happened to her though. I can't imagine.
We made dad met us at the vet and he came home long enough to burry her, since we wanted her with us on our land. I begged to go, to go onto Summerland where she belongs to watch over us and be with the rest of my loved ones but she refused to go. I wish it didn't happen the way it did. I still don't want to go into that garage right now. Messes eveyrwhere. Our other dog is confused and sad. He looks for her everywhere but can't find her. We've kept him inside all day.
She was 11. An old dog and she lived the happiest life a dog can I think. Lots of space to run and a family and friends who loved her--and she loved everyone too! Now I keep thinking she'll come out from under the porch--her favorite spot during the summer... and what am I gonna do when I get home from school? She was always right on that porch from the time I left in the morning till when I got back, as if she knew when I'd be home!! All my drivers used to say: oh there's your friend!! And when she wasn't there, they'd ask where she was. My heart feel empty right now, a part is missing but I'm sure it'll come back. I believe there's an afterlife for everyone and she's probably still here and she probably doesn't even know she's dead. I can bet that the other plane of existence is just like here only we can't see them. I don't know. I'm going to pray for her though and hope she made it ok. I know she won't suffer now!
On the other hand, I got DSL!!! Not instantaneous but a HELL of a lot more steady than dial up! I just now got it so I'll see what I can do to maybe optimize it and lock down my ports.
Saturday, Kirby went into seizures unexplainedly! It was so awful!! Yesterday, she didn't even know what was going on. We found her across the road at a neighbor's house. we thought she went to lay down and die somewhere alone. Unforutnately, that wasn't the case. I say that cuz we didn't want her to suffer. That dog is part of our family and has been so since she was two!! The sweetest lil mutt ever and those who met her know how sweet she was! But today was too much. Dad wanted to wait till tommorrow to put her down because he was at work but to see her going into convulsions like that repeatedly is horrible. Mom came home from work and we took her in to be euthanized. The hardest thing we ever did. We cried all the way there, I was afraid mom wasn't going to be able to drive. The vet came to our car to give her the shot; asked if we'd liek to watch but Kasi and I couldn't bare it. It still horrifies me to know all that happened to her though. I can't imagine.
We made dad met us at the vet and he came home long enough to burry her, since we wanted her with us on our land. I begged to go, to go onto Summerland where she belongs to watch over us and be with the rest of my loved ones but she refused to go. I wish it didn't happen the way it did. I still don't want to go into that garage right now. Messes eveyrwhere. Our other dog is confused and sad. He looks for her everywhere but can't find her. We've kept him inside all day.
She was 11. An old dog and she lived the happiest life a dog can I think. Lots of space to run and a family and friends who loved her--and she loved everyone too! Now I keep thinking she'll come out from under the porch--her favorite spot during the summer... and what am I gonna do when I get home from school? She was always right on that porch from the time I left in the morning till when I got back, as if she knew when I'd be home!! All my drivers used to say: oh there's your friend!! And when she wasn't there, they'd ask where she was. My heart feel empty right now, a part is missing but I'm sure it'll come back. I believe there's an afterlife for everyone and she's probably still here and she probably doesn't even know she's dead. I can bet that the other plane of existence is just like here only we can't see them. I don't know. I'm going to pray for her though and hope she made it ok. I know she won't suffer now!
On the other hand, I got DSL!!! Not instantaneous but a HELL of a lot more steady than dial up! I just now got it so I'll see what I can do to maybe optimize it and lock down my ports.