False friendship?
Ok, I got really bored today. Why?
Well, first I would like to say that it's not good being surrounded by negative people. They turn your life into a big clutter of negative thoughts and make you feel like a sh*t. Isn't much better being with someone who is constantly thinking and saying good things even in bad situations than with someone who tries to find bad things and intentions in everything? This is even worse if the person in question has an egocentric attitude.
For the past four years I had a best friend. During this time I also had other good friends but, for some reason, she was the person who I got closer with. But the problem is that she is a very difficult girl to deal with, too much impatient. Every little thing gets on her nerves. I tried many times to warn her about her temper, but she thinks she's doing the right thing being angry and saying things to let people down, even if it's her best friend. It was like about three years ago when we were at the school library, she was looking for things in some magazines for a homework and I unintentionally lost the pages she marked, then she yelled I was a useless person and that I spoil things instead of helping, this in a silent library, where everybody was hearing and looking at me after she went out. I got a bit disappointed with myself and I was thinking like "You didn't need to yell like that", but I wasn't mad at her. After some hours we were friends again. I started thinking she was a very pessimist person, if she doesn't understand a school subject and tries to study, she gets mad and says she will never understand it. It happened twice this year. The first was before an English test, she doesn't understand almost anything in English, so I offered to help her with the subject, I even wrote some words on the black board for her, and after a time when I asked her to translate the words, I started talking with another friend beside me about the test, what made her very angry and she told us very rudely to get very far from her and stop pertubing her because we weren't helping in anything. The second happened last week, when she asked me to teach her Math, and again she couldn't understand it so she started yelling me to let her alone. The truth is that she didn't pay attention to the teacher's explanation and didn't do almost any exercises, while she was there talking to our other friends I was doing the activities and she dared to tell me that no matter how much she studies, she never takes a good grade in Math tests.
Ok, so these are just few examples on her behavior. Today I was in a good mood, we were all talking normally about many subjects, and since I love to personate, I started personating the way she speaks just to make her laugh, I even had asked my friends to personate me. But she didn't liked it and say it to me "Did you know you are an idiot?". Now I'm very angry with her althought I kept it to myself. I can realize that we are two different person. I'm the happy and outgoing one and she is the serious and nervous one. Sometimes I say things without thinking, but hadn't we being friends for more than four years? Didn't I apologize her when she didn't come to my birthday party and let me waiting in my house for half an hour? And the party was at my grandma's. I had to call her and she told me she wasn't coming because of the rain!
Now I think that it's better to remove such negative person from my life. Since the classes are almost finished and next year I'll go to the College, this kind of "friendship" I prefer not to have. I'll still talk to her, but I prefer not being too close to her anymore because I don't wanna feel these bad feelings again in the future.
That's it.
Well, first I would like to say that it's not good being surrounded by negative people. They turn your life into a big clutter of negative thoughts and make you feel like a sh*t. Isn't much better being with someone who is constantly thinking and saying good things even in bad situations than with someone who tries to find bad things and intentions in everything? This is even worse if the person in question has an egocentric attitude.
For the past four years I had a best friend. During this time I also had other good friends but, for some reason, she was the person who I got closer with. But the problem is that she is a very difficult girl to deal with, too much impatient. Every little thing gets on her nerves. I tried many times to warn her about her temper, but she thinks she's doing the right thing being angry and saying things to let people down, even if it's her best friend. It was like about three years ago when we were at the school library, she was looking for things in some magazines for a homework and I unintentionally lost the pages she marked, then she yelled I was a useless person and that I spoil things instead of helping, this in a silent library, where everybody was hearing and looking at me after she went out. I got a bit disappointed with myself and I was thinking like "You didn't need to yell like that", but I wasn't mad at her. After some hours we were friends again. I started thinking she was a very pessimist person, if she doesn't understand a school subject and tries to study, she gets mad and says she will never understand it. It happened twice this year. The first was before an English test, she doesn't understand almost anything in English, so I offered to help her with the subject, I even wrote some words on the black board for her, and after a time when I asked her to translate the words, I started talking with another friend beside me about the test, what made her very angry and she told us very rudely to get very far from her and stop pertubing her because we weren't helping in anything. The second happened last week, when she asked me to teach her Math, and again she couldn't understand it so she started yelling me to let her alone. The truth is that she didn't pay attention to the teacher's explanation and didn't do almost any exercises, while she was there talking to our other friends I was doing the activities and she dared to tell me that no matter how much she studies, she never takes a good grade in Math tests.
Ok, so these are just few examples on her behavior. Today I was in a good mood, we were all talking normally about many subjects, and since I love to personate, I started personating the way she speaks just to make her laugh, I even had asked my friends to personate me. But she didn't liked it and say it to me "Did you know you are an idiot?". Now I'm very angry with her althought I kept it to myself. I can realize that we are two different person. I'm the happy and outgoing one and she is the serious and nervous one. Sometimes I say things without thinking, but hadn't we being friends for more than four years? Didn't I apologize her when she didn't come to my birthday party and let me waiting in my house for half an hour? And the party was at my grandma's. I had to call her and she told me she wasn't coming because of the rain!
Now I think that it's better to remove such negative person from my life. Since the classes are almost finished and next year I'll go to the College, this kind of "friendship" I prefer not to have. I'll still talk to her, but I prefer not being too close to her anymore because I don't wanna feel these bad feelings again in the future.
That's it.