i'm just so tired.
i'm tired of not getting any response from the places i'm applying to for jobs. i'm tired of having to tell my parents that, yes, i am applying for jobs even though it looks like i just sit on the couch and watch cooking or diy shows all day. i'm tired of procrastinating my jump back into the weight loss wagon until next month, next week, tomorrow. i'm tired of having people not take me seriously. i'm tired of having to put on a smile and pretend that nothing is wrong. i'm tired of my family mocking me. i'm tired of feeling useless and pathetic and worthless. i'm tired of being terrified of my student loans coming due and not having the money to make even one payment. i'm tired of feeling like everyone in the world is judging me for my appearance. i'm tired of fighting back the urge to curl up into a ball and cry.