Friday night and nothing to do...

[makeyourselfneu]

Dammit, its midnight on a Friday and i am not plastered. I am so disappointed in myself. Oh well, I'm in a pretty good mood despite my soberness. I smoked hookah and watched a movie with meg earlier and that usually puts me in a good mood. Also the fact that the past few days i haven't had to do any studio shit makes me happy. In other news i have to buy a fucking suit for my job interviews... not cool, i'm not really a dressy type person. The only way i would possibly be excited to wear a suit was if it was the suit i wore to prom, that shit was pimp as hell. Uhh, prom, i think i just put myself in a bad mood again... I think i might just buy some cheapy shit suit and wait till i start making some money then drop like $500 on a nice suit that i semi like. Wow, i better get on that, i start doing interviews and shit at the beginning of november. Hopefully my parents will meet up with me in bangor when i go home next weekend so they can pay for it. I think i could find a reasonable suit for like $150 so that shouldn't be too bad. Now if only i could drop like 50 pounds so i would look decent in a suit. I'll leave it at that. I can't wait to go home next weekend, its going to be awesome. Spending the weekend at fat mikes apartment getting all sorts of drunk at their halloween party. He also mentioned getting some tea on tap which would seriously make my fucking semester because i have had 1 bottle of twisted tea in the last 2 months... I drank that shit like every weekend this summer and i can't find anyone to buy here and they don't have tea on tap anyways and that makes me sad. Wow, megan is right, i am a fucking hick...oh well, if being a hick entails drinking copious amounts of twisted tea and eating trail mix i think i can accept that. Anyways, my family guy episode just finished downloading so i am done for now.

I'm sleeping my way out of this one
With anyone who will lie down
I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds

I'm sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own

The only thing worse than not knowing
Is you thinking that I don't know
I'm having another episode
I just need a stronger dose