so cold i could see my breath (from myspace, 3-13-06)
Well, I haven't written in here that much. Maybe it's because I have computer access like once a month or so. But anyways...
I need to get all of this off my chest, because if I don't I will explode. Well, I think I've been in love twice my whole life. Once with my current best friend, and then there was Austin. Damn, I don't even wanna go there. I guess I'll make a long story short: I loved him, he didn't love me back(repeat over and over). He went to Florida for 7 months, and I'm left behind here to basically rot. There's so much more to that, but I don't feel like getting into the gut-wrenching tale right now.
On Feb. 14th, I was in a car wreck. I let my unlicensed friend drive my car. She was showing off on an old gravel road, and she wrecked on what used to be called Rollercoaster Hill. We flipped, went thru a fence, and hit a tree. I blacked out for what seemed like forever. Cut to the chase... I lied to the cops, told them I was driving because I was scared what the insurance would do if they knew she was driving. Well, the lie fell through, they found out she was driving. She and I spent the night in jail. I've got court on the 24th, and I'm scared shitless. My car was towed, and I haven't had transportation or insurance for almost 4 weeks. To top everything off, because of the wreck, I lost a damn good job. I was just trying to get my life back on track... and then the wreck happened. I have never felt so stupid or depressed in my whole entire life. There's no way out of this. I already owed the bank alot of money, and now I'm gonna owe the court alot of money. Yay. This will be over in about 3 years. Oh yeah, did I mention I might be doing jail time?
Damn, I can't think about this anymore... if anyone can give me some advice, it's welcome. Prayers are welcome also.
I need to get all of this off my chest, because if I don't I will explode. Well, I think I've been in love twice my whole life. Once with my current best friend, and then there was Austin. Damn, I don't even wanna go there. I guess I'll make a long story short: I loved him, he didn't love me back(repeat over and over). He went to Florida for 7 months, and I'm left behind here to basically rot. There's so much more to that, but I don't feel like getting into the gut-wrenching tale right now.
On Feb. 14th, I was in a car wreck. I let my unlicensed friend drive my car. She was showing off on an old gravel road, and she wrecked on what used to be called Rollercoaster Hill. We flipped, went thru a fence, and hit a tree. I blacked out for what seemed like forever. Cut to the chase... I lied to the cops, told them I was driving because I was scared what the insurance would do if they knew she was driving. Well, the lie fell through, they found out she was driving. She and I spent the night in jail. I've got court on the 24th, and I'm scared shitless. My car was towed, and I haven't had transportation or insurance for almost 4 weeks. To top everything off, because of the wreck, I lost a damn good job. I was just trying to get my life back on track... and then the wreck happened. I have never felt so stupid or depressed in my whole entire life. There's no way out of this. I already owed the bank alot of money, and now I'm gonna owe the court alot of money. Yay. This will be over in about 3 years. Oh yeah, did I mention I might be doing jail time?
Damn, I can't think about this anymore... if anyone can give me some advice, it's welcome. Prayers are welcome also.