i'm sorry;; sorry;; for making your life a living hell
Yesterday was one of those days;; when you are talking at work to your boss and you realize just how big of an jerk you and your friends can be. When you realize that you really do know the goodheartedness of people and you just don't like to accept it. I felt really bad after work and I cried because of it. I know he doesn't read this;; and that some people like Kat and Chris are giong to call me crazy. But I genuinely and whole heartidly feel bad.
I'm sorry;; for everything;; I'm sorry for my selfishness and my friends way of "helping me". They didn't get it through their heads that calling you at all hours of the night; and hacking your account to get some girls email address wouldnt be helping me; but hurting you instead. I'm sorry that I was so stubborn about the whole ordeal; and that I never wanted to give up - i get it from my mother; I'm sorry that I have a strong heart and that I care enough to still try. I'm sorry that even though you can be so cold to me; I still know what an amazing person you are inside. I'm sorry that you were like my first REAL boyfriend and that part of me will always still care atleast the slightest bit. I'm sorry that you probably think I'm crazy for waiting this long to address this whole thing;; instead of just leaving it to rest. I'm sorry that I "ruined your life" and that you still are stuck seeing me every sunday. Basically I guess;; I'm sorry;; I'm sorry for being me, for acting like I do, for trying to fix things, despite popular belief I'm not a bad person. And I'm sorry for making your life so difficult. And one day, maybe you'll accept these apologies, I already know that if we both tried you could tolerate me enough to be civil towards me; because you did that for so long before and during. I guess; I'm sorry for everything I've done in the past 6 months or so. I never really realized how bad of a person my friends and I can be up until yesterday.
I don't really feel like updating.. sorry.
I'm sorry;; for everything;; I'm sorry for my selfishness and my friends way of "helping me". They didn't get it through their heads that calling you at all hours of the night; and hacking your account to get some girls email address wouldnt be helping me; but hurting you instead. I'm sorry that I was so stubborn about the whole ordeal; and that I never wanted to give up - i get it from my mother; I'm sorry that I have a strong heart and that I care enough to still try. I'm sorry that even though you can be so cold to me; I still know what an amazing person you are inside. I'm sorry that you were like my first REAL boyfriend and that part of me will always still care atleast the slightest bit. I'm sorry that you probably think I'm crazy for waiting this long to address this whole thing;; instead of just leaving it to rest. I'm sorry that I "ruined your life" and that you still are stuck seeing me every sunday. Basically I guess;; I'm sorry;; I'm sorry for being me, for acting like I do, for trying to fix things, despite popular belief I'm not a bad person. And I'm sorry for making your life so difficult. And one day, maybe you'll accept these apologies, I already know that if we both tried you could tolerate me enough to be civil towards me; because you did that for so long before and during. I guess; I'm sorry for everything I've done in the past 6 months or so. I never really realized how bad of a person my friends and I can be up until yesterday.
I don't really feel like updating.. sorry.