pull the trigger and the nightmare stops..pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...
Hello- i am feeling like total shit and i hate it...i can't stop crying. it is bad, i feel like no matter what i do i can't help anyone. i try so hard to make everyone else's life easier and i can't deal with my own problems on top of mine. i am not that strong. it is all too much to deal with right now. i wish it would all just go away everything that i ever believed has been proven wrong in two days. i think that it is time to just let go, let go of everything and everyone who makes me feel this way. i can't be around people that are depressed because it makes me depressed. i am so depressed right now. this feeling won't go away that if anything were to happen to those friends it would be my fault because i didnt try hard enough and it would kill me to lose them but it all just hurts so bad and i can't take it. i just can't live with this. i need to talk to ashley, she makes me feel better, so does alot of other people but they don't know the whole story about everything. i am emotionally worn out and i just started crying to my mom. it might sound cheesy but i could give a fuck less of how it sounds. my mom understands what other people don't me and her are close.. sometimes. i am sounding like a total baby but i don't care. my mom just left to go see joe. yeah and she won't be home until late tonight like real late so if anyone wants to talk call me... -Heather