HERE IN YOUR PRESENCE, I AM NOT AFRAID OF BROKENNESS/
"Our Lord never put His trust in any person. Yet He was never suspicious, never bitter, and never lost hope for anyone, because He put His trust in God first. He trusted absolutely in what God’s grace could do for others.
If I put my trust in human beings first, the end result will be my despair and hopelessness toward everyone. I will become bitter because I have insisted that people be what no person can ever be- absolutely perfect and right. Never trust anything in yourself or in anyone else, except the grace of God." (Oswald Chambers)
In spite of midterms and the same old craziness of Hall (and life in general), I'm feeling so alive in Chirst. It's been so heartwarming what He's been helping us do in Sheares so far - to start up this VCF ministry and the CG (now 2, one on Wednesday and the other on Thursday).
Tonight's session was just amazing, as I prayed for God to hide me behind His Cross before I led the Bible study. And surely enough, He delivered. I was so lost for words before it started. There was so much fear and uncertainty. But as we moved through the passage, I could just feel God empowering me and putting the words in my mouth. He told me exactly what to say, and how to say it; He even gave me help from Reuben and also from those who shared. The best part, as all others in such positions would testify, is that not only do the others learn, you learn too. And I did. I felt like it took on new meaning for me, and it opened my eyes. Then, after the session, one of the members came up to me to thank me for the session 'cuz she said she'd rly learnt a lot. That was God showing me the fruit of His labour; all glory be unto Him.
God does amazing things continually, time and again. And as a reminder that my trust should be placed in no man - no, not even myself - He took over the reins when I gave Him the opportunity to. I let God be God, and that's exactly what He did.