WHOSE WISDOM IS MY PERFECT PEACE.
My heart is filled with thankfulness
To Him who walks beside
Who floods my weaknesses with strength
And causes fears to fly
Whose ev'ry promise is enough
For ev'ry step I take
Sustaining me with arms of love
And crowning me with grace
Guess I'm finally changed. Each and every major one, He has seen me through. He has delivered me from the depths of Hell. I should've died that day. I should've plunged into the vacuum of nothingness, never to crawl back out. Curse my unbelief. I may have faith but it is superficial. I believe, but 100% has never been. I guess it took three times. Thrice to finally convince this hardened heart and melt it from stone. Because I am hardened like that; because I am human like that, sinful and unbelieving like that. To finally proclaim loud & clear for all to hear: He does wonders.
Mercy is not getting something you deserve and Grace is getting something you don't deserve. On Friday, I got the best of both. On Friday, I finally understood the meaning of Jeremiah 29:11(and I'm filled with peace that none can give.)
Having said all that, it's difficult having to face the fact that I'm expected to live by the world's standards AND I DON'T MATCH UP. To remind myself that I'm accountable to no one but He who lives way up high.